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He assured me I could take my time and <strong>the</strong>re was no hurry, but I was anxious to get my stuff out<br />
ASAP.<br />
The next day, while Hef was working in his office, I went into <strong>the</strong> master suite for my last round<br />
of packing. When I went to grab my things from a shelf near <strong>the</strong> bed, I noticed one of Hef’s file<br />
folders sitting neatly in <strong>the</strong> middle of what was formerly “my side of <strong>the</strong> bed.”<br />
That’s weird, I thought.<br />
Hef never leaves important documents lying around. They’re always locked up in his bedroom<br />
safe or his office, or being hand carried by him personally. He was a man of routine—and this was<br />
entirely out of character.<br />
Curious, I picked up <strong>the</strong> stack of papers, which were obviously left for me to see. Inside was a<br />
copy of his last will and testament. I spent seven years living with <strong>the</strong> man, so I can tell you on good<br />
authority that he would have never have left something this important lying around by accident. It was<br />
clear to me that this was meant for me to see.<br />
It carefully outlined <strong>the</strong> division of his estate. After death tax, his fortunes would be divvied up<br />
starting with roughly 50 percent to his charitable foundation and <strong>the</strong> bulk of <strong>the</strong> remainder divided<br />
evenly between his four children: Christie, David, Marston, and Cooper. No surprise <strong>the</strong>re.<br />
What came next was shocking to me. For <strong>the</strong> better part of a decade, Hef used money as a means<br />
to control each girlfriend. Anything he shared was temporary: a weekly allowance, monthly payments<br />
for leased cars, etc. At a moment’s notice, he had <strong>the</strong> ability to pull <strong>the</strong> rug out from under us.<br />
But it was <strong>the</strong>re, in black and white. The will stated that $3,000,000 would be bestowed to<br />
<strong>Holly</strong> <strong>Madison</strong> at <strong>the</strong> time of his death (provided I still lived at <strong>the</strong> mansion). At <strong>the</strong> time, it was more<br />
money than I’d ever know what to do with.<br />
We had never spoken about his will—and I never expected anything like that. In <strong>the</strong> past, he had<br />
casually mentioned leaving me <strong>the</strong> Bunny House, but I never took <strong>the</strong> bait. Disgusted by <strong>the</strong> golddigger<br />
image <strong>the</strong> public had of me, I tried to stay away from those kinds of clichés as much as<br />
possible in my real life. I still held on to a shred of hope that I would one day be financially<br />
independent. I had saved enough of my GND salary to put a down payment on a Santa Monica condo I<br />
hoped to rent out. And once I had started making some money, I stopped accepting <strong>the</strong> “clothing<br />
allowance” that made me feel so cheap.<br />
Eventually, I would go on to find my own success, but I didn’t know it back <strong>the</strong>n. My future was<br />
a gamble. Despite spending seven years in one of <strong>the</strong> most expensive homes in Los Angeles, living a<br />
relatively lavish lifestyle, I had no wealth of my own—just <strong>the</strong> illusion of it. Three million dollars<br />
was a lot of money to me.<br />
But I didn’t want it. I actually pitied him for stooping to that level. I couldn’t help being<br />
offended. Did he really think he could buy me?<br />
I put <strong>the</strong> folder back on <strong>the</strong> bed just as I had found it and never brea<strong>the</strong>d a word of it.<br />
During one of our final encounters at <strong>the</strong> mansion, Hef spotted me as he shuffled down <strong>the</strong><br />
hallway.<br />
“You’re not wearing your bunny necklace,” he said, a sorrowful look plaguing his eyes. I didn’t<br />
know what to say. I was only glad he didn’t know that I had already started <strong>the</strong> process of removing