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ehind me, and told him I was moving
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my Harp as soon I walked in the doo
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“Your key, mademoiselle,” said
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My friend Meredith lived in an apar
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“This was fun,” I said. He was
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OF COURSE. OF course I’d gone to
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like you should not be crying,” h
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When the bottle was drained, I’d
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But no, really, I had it this time.
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off a gargantuan diamond. I thought
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INTERLUDE
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ain, which allowed his body to deve
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But his once-sallow cheeks were ros
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announcing their baby. Nobody wants
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want to remain silent and unknowabl
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Bubba curled up alongside me when I
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for me? My friends didn’t necessa
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ecause otherwise you have to go int
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said, and she was right. The next w
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fill-in-the-blank letter of apology
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the tastes of a frat boy, or a grum
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Mine was a recipe for unhappiness.
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He tugged too hard, then I tugged t
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SEX My first date in sobriety was w
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30s to stare down a personal profil
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and said, “Look, I dressed up for
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“I’m thinking: Well, that was f
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he’s impotent or not, I don’t k
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ELEVEN
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the scorn of strangers. They skip t
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Addiction was the inverse of honest
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I worshipped alcohol, and it consum
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THIS IS THE PLACE A few months befo
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Anna and I have had 20 years of the
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saying in midsentence. My dad loses
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from here, I told myself. There wil
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR SARAH HEPOLA’S w
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