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GOODBYE,MPH<br />
A senior reflects on high school and looks forward to college<br />
Photo and story by Seamus Mulhern<br />
For me,<br />
high<br />
school is<br />
like a relationship.<br />
One day,<br />
you’re going<br />
about your<br />
business and<br />
you meet this<br />
person. You<br />
strike up a<br />
conversation<br />
and it quickly<br />
becomes apparent<br />
that this person is … different.<br />
For example, during my first day of high<br />
school, I spent a whole study hall talking to<br />
people I had just met rather than doing work.<br />
I know that sounds trivial, but compared to<br />
middle school, where someone gets lectured<br />
for whistling too loudly, it felt liberating.<br />
It seems as though there’s a world of mystery<br />
surrounding this new person in your life.<br />
A collection of undiscovered revelations not<br />
just about them, but about your life and the<br />
world as a whole. At first glance, High School<br />
is welcoming and interesting and warm and<br />
sweet. <strong>The</strong> teachers are nice, the students are<br />
all right, the lunch is certainly better than at<br />
the public middle school I attended.<br />
<strong>The</strong> first few days together live up to expectations.<br />
You’re inseparable. Every day feels<br />
like the best day of your life.<br />
Sure, the classes are a bit harder, but<br />
every day is a new adventure. Every day, I was<br />
meeting new people and making new friends.<br />
Best of all, it’s all under the guise of being able<br />
to say that you are a high-schooler. During<br />
my first few days of high school, I had a much<br />
easier time making friends than my entire<br />
time in middle school. <strong>The</strong>re was a sense of<br />
liberation, as if I was being restricted for my<br />
entire life and I was just then learning what<br />
it meant to be my own person. I will never<br />
forget the time when I helped make a bike for<br />
a science project or my first free block when<br />
I watched Monty Python with friends when I<br />
should have been studying for a math quiz.<br />
It’s unexplainable. It’s engaging. Nothing<br />
can stop you. You’re killin’ it.<br />
<strong>The</strong>n, what feels like an eternity passes<br />
by. Suddenly, this person who had once felt so<br />
welcoming and interesting becomes someone<br />
you feel distant from. What used to fill you<br />
with excitement and joy now just becomes a<br />
source of needless anxiety and stress.<br />
<strong>The</strong>re’s a consistent onslaught of difficult<br />
projects and exams, social drama, and, a lot<br />
of the time, whenever you’re there, you just<br />
feel uncomfortable with yourself. It just does<br />
not feel like you’re in the right place.<br />
In my case, I was obsessing over creating<br />
the perfect college application, creating a<br />
great artistic portfolio to apply for a screenwriting<br />
degree, and, all the while, trying to<br />
make time to be a relatively social person in<br />
my final year of being “young and innocent.”<br />
Because of all of this, High School feels<br />
very clingy. Though still nice and all, High<br />
School’s previously inviting embrace suddenly<br />
becomes an inescapable grip that makes<br />
you feel trapped. It feels like you’re being tied<br />
up by college deadlines, STP deadlines and<br />
homework deadlines. You just get to a point<br />
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