The Buddha-Carita or The Life of Buddha by Ven. Aśvaghoṣa

Buddha-carita, or The Life of Buddha - 80
nāsmi yātu pura śakto dahyamānena cetasā |
tvāmaraṇye parityajya sumitra iva rāghavam || 6.36
36. ‘I cannot go to the city with my soul thus burning, leaving thee behind in the forest
as Sumitra 1 left the son of Raghu.
ki hi vakṣyati rājā mā tvadte nagara gatam |
vakṣyāmyucitadarśitvātki tavātaḥpurāṇi vā || 6.37
37. ‘What will the king say to me, returning to the city without thee? or what shall I
say to thy queens by way of telling them good news?
yadapyātthāpi nairguṇya vācya narapatāviti |
ki tadvakṣyāmyabhūta te nirdoṣasya muneriva || 6.38
38. ‘As for what thou saidst, "thou must repeat my unworthiness to the king" — how
shall I speak what is false of thee as of a sage without a fault?
hdayena salajjena jihvayā sajjamānayā |
aha yadyapi vā brūyā kastacchraddhātumarhati || 6.39
39. ‘Or even if I ventured to speak it with a heart ashamed and a tongue cleaving to
my mouth, who would think of believing it?
yo hi cadramasastaikṣṇya kathayecchraddadhīta vā |
sa doṣāstava doṣajña kathayecchraddadhīta vā || 6.40
40. ‘He who would tell of or believe the fierceness of the moon, might tell of or
believe thy faults, O physician of faults.
sānukrośasya satata nitya karuṇavedinaḥ |
snigdhatyāgo na sadśo nivartasva prasīda me || 6.41
41. ‘Him who is always compassionate and who never fails to feel pity, it ill befits to
abandon one who loves, — turn back and have mercy on me.’
iti śokābhibhūtasya śrutvā chadasya bhāṣitam |
svasthaḥ paramayā dhtyā jagāda vadatā varaḥ || 6.42
42. Having heard these words of Chada overcome with sorrow, — self-possessed
with the utmost firmness the best of speakers answered:
1 This is the Samantra of the Rāmāyaṇa II, 57.