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I had finally decided to let go<br />
of everything and surrender. In<br />
that moment, I had no ego or<br />
pride, and I was totally desperate<br />
for something better.<br />
True to His nature, God heard<br />
my heartfelt pleas and answered<br />
my prayers. He began to perform<br />
what I like to call a modern<br />
day progressive miracle in my<br />
life. Slowly but surely, people<br />
entered and re-entered my life—<br />
people who were instrumental<br />
in guiding me, encouraging me,<br />
supporting me, teaching me,<br />
loving me, and chastising me<br />
as I embarked on this transformational<br />
journey from useless<br />
to useful. God also began to<br />
place me in specific positions of<br />
significance.<br />
In 2000, God took me out of<br />
the supermax, a place people said<br />
I would never leave. Eventually,<br />
He also took me out of disciplinary<br />
segregation. In about six<br />
years, the DOC cut 41 years, 10<br />
months, and 12 days off my segregation<br />
time and returned me<br />
to general population. But before<br />
this could happen, I also had<br />
to do my part, on and off record.<br />
Because I had been transformed<br />
God heard my pleas and<br />
answered my prayers.<br />
in Jesus, I no longer wanted to<br />
be destructive and disruptive.<br />
As I engrossed myself in God’s<br />
Word and surrounded myself<br />
with constructive, positive, and<br />
purposeful things and people, I<br />
was no longer drawn to the old<br />
allurements. It was a gradual,<br />
incremental shift, but it was<br />
thorough.<br />
My transformation was not<br />
easy. The devil is real, and the<br />
war being waged for our souls<br />
is also real. I was constantly<br />
tempted, ridiculed, criticized,<br />
threatened, challenged, and attacked,<br />
but with the help of the<br />
Lord, I remained steadfast and<br />
resolute through it all. I wanted<br />
to prove my faithfulness not<br />
only to God, but also to myself.<br />
While I was a gang-banging<br />
parasite, I was wholly commit-<br />
26 | <strong>Loaves</strong> & <strong>Fishes</strong> • Issue <strong>27</strong>