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Vereshchagin’s “Doors” All entrances forbid. But I linger before the enormous gold arabesques of painted doors in The Doors of the Mosque— as if by following the lines to their end, I might enter what I couldn’t understand. Ten years since I first stood dizzied by its beggars—one cross-legged, hands working over something not visible, face turned away. Half in terror they might return his gaze, Vereshchagin must have hurried back to sketch them still blazing the edges of his sight. A world so far from where he came, that, upon arrival, he was someone else. How he fled, could not but return in his mind again to the country he was born to paint and throw himself against, his brush retouching the hands that lifted as he passed them daily, brushing his sides, as if he were a canvas. It’s not my place, he’d want to say. Or I can’t understand. The gold minaret ablaze, the beggar soured in filth, his hand a child’s mouth. Judging eye. Window without frame. Why do I turn my face again to what looks away? Years ago, in winter, so sick it hurt to inhale, in the shell of what I did not know I was, I stumbled on a station— its five tracks stretching past the horizon, took the thumb to St. Petersburg, tilted with the crowd past a legless vet, his palm open as if holding up the globe. I went inside, saw the doors and they did not open. I stood at the doors and they did not open—and I could rest, at last, before them. Philip Metres 66
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Vereshchag<strong>in</strong>’s “Doors”<br />
All entrances forbid. But I l<strong>in</strong>ger<br />
before <strong>the</strong> enormous<br />
gold arabesques of pa<strong>in</strong>ted doors<br />
<strong>in</strong> The Doors of <strong>the</strong> Mosque—<br />
as if by follow<strong>in</strong>g <strong>the</strong> l<strong>in</strong>es<br />
to <strong>the</strong>ir end, I might enter<br />
what I couldn’t underst<strong>and</strong>.<br />
Ten years s<strong>in</strong>ce I first stood<br />
dizzied by its beggars—one<br />
cross-legged, h<strong>and</strong>s work<strong>in</strong>g<br />
over someth<strong>in</strong>g not visible, face<br />
turned away. Half <strong>in</strong> terror<br />
<strong>the</strong>y might return his gaze,<br />
Vereshchag<strong>in</strong> must have hurried<br />
back to sketch <strong>the</strong>m still<br />
blaz<strong>in</strong>g <strong>the</strong> edges of his sight.<br />
A world so far <strong>from</strong> where he came,<br />
that, upon arrival, he was<br />
someone else. How he fled, could not<br />
but return <strong>in</strong> his m<strong>in</strong>d aga<strong>in</strong><br />
to <strong>the</strong> country he was born to pa<strong>in</strong>t<br />
<strong>and</strong> throw himself aga<strong>in</strong>st,<br />
his brush retouch<strong>in</strong>g <strong>the</strong> h<strong>and</strong>s that lifted<br />
as he passed <strong>the</strong>m daily, brush<strong>in</strong>g<br />
his sides, as if he were a canvas.<br />
It’s not my place, he’d want<br />
to say. Or I can’t underst<strong>and</strong>. The gold<br />
m<strong>in</strong>aret ablaze, <strong>the</strong> beggar<br />
soured <strong>in</strong> filth, his h<strong>and</strong> a child’s mouth.<br />
Judg<strong>in</strong>g eye. W<strong>in</strong>dow<br />
without frame. Why do I turn my face aga<strong>in</strong><br />
to what looks away?<br />
Years ago, <strong>in</strong> w<strong>in</strong>ter, so sick<br />
it hurt to <strong>in</strong>hale, <strong>in</strong> <strong>the</strong> shell<br />
of what I did not know<br />
I was, I stumbled on a station—<br />
its five tracks stretch<strong>in</strong>g<br />
past <strong>the</strong> horizon, took <strong>the</strong> thumb<br />
to St. Petersburg, tilted<br />
with <strong>the</strong> crowd past a legless vet,<br />
his palm open as if hold<strong>in</strong>g up<br />
<strong>the</strong> globe. I went <strong><strong>in</strong>side</strong>,<br />
saw <strong>the</strong> doors <strong>and</strong> <strong>the</strong>y did not<br />
open. I stood at <strong>the</strong> doors<br />
<strong>and</strong> <strong>the</strong>y did not open—<strong>and</strong> I could rest,<br />
at last, before <strong>the</strong>m.<br />
Philip Metres<br />
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