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Jumoke Omisore<br />
We only die once<br />
“She did all this to you?” AJ asks, gaping at the bruised skin on my legs where the duvet<br />
does not reach. I want to tell him about the leathery welts on my bottom where my father’s<br />
floggings <strong>of</strong>ten land when my stepmother feeds him lies about me. I want to tell him about<br />
the rage in my father’s eyes when he hears those lies.<br />
Sometimes I wonder if the lies are true—the way she tells them, I feel sorry for my<br />
stepmother because the girl in her stories makes her home sound like a hell <strong>of</strong> an edifice.<br />
“Let me get some water from the tap so you can wash your face,” AJ says and leaves the<br />
room. I want more than water—I need food, water and warmth. I imagine what I will do<br />
to milky tea and freshly baked bread when I lay my hands on them and the yearning only<br />
serves to stir my hunger.<br />
I wonder why none <strong>of</strong> the neighbours came to my rescue while I squatted all day beside<br />
the gates, until darkness descended upon the streets. My father had simply walked past<br />
me when he returned from his job as a taxi driver. He’d gone straight into the apartment<br />
that had refused to become my home. I came to live there after my grandmother’s death<br />
four years ago. At first, the new arrangement worked. Until the day I broke my stepmother’s<br />
oldest glassware.<br />
I glance at the wall clock; it is two o’clock in the morning. AJ returns with a small bucket <strong>of</strong><br />
water. He hands me a towel before disappearing again. The water is warm and I savour it as<br />
I slowly dip the towel and dab my face. I do not wince because I am acquainted with pain.<br />
There is a mirror directly across the room. It shows my reflection, the crevices in my collar<br />
bones and the hollows in my cheeks. I notice my shaven head is smaller than it used to be<br />
when I was eight and lived with Grandmother. My lower lip is now twice its size and caked<br />
with dried blood.<br />
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