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ANNE ZEYGERMAN

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We fear DEATH.
It is something that is often unexplored. We have books and religions
explaining the after life and what happens after one’s death. But the
mere act of dying is often portrayed as morbid and painful.
Death, in itself, is an act of change. It is an act of morphing and of
moving from one point to another. And with change comes pain.
I have often pondered the existence of pain and suffering. It is
something that we naturally try to avoid or overcome but, no matter
what we do, the fact remains that death is a part of human existence.
Without it, we never truly feel happiness much like light cannot exist
without darkness.
I have come to embrace it as a hidden blessing. After all, it is only
when we experience pain and suffering that we come to know the
true value of happiness.
Losing a loved one is one of the worst forms of pain a human being
can experience. When someone close to us is near death, their
demise is very rarely discussed; we fear it coming true. But death
is not something to shy away from. Instead, it should be explored,
revered, and viewed as a blessing for, without it, we would not value
life and all that which enriches it.
In Homer’s The Iliad, it is written - “The gods envy us. They envy us
because we’re mortal, because any moment may be our last. Everything
is more beautiful because we’re doomed. You will never be
lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.”
Life is beautiful because we know it will end.
This book is an exploration of that: the beauty that we only find in
death.

DEDICATED TO LOLO REY AND PAPA ALEKS

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TURQUOISE WATER
RQUOISE WATER
QUOISE WATER
UOISE WATER
I WAS SWIMMING IN THE PACIFIC’S TURQUOISE WATER
I WAS SWIMMING IN THE PACIFIC’S TURQUOISE WATER
I WAS SWIMMING IN THE PACIFIC’S TURQUOISE WATER
I WAS SWIMMING IN THE PACIFIC’S TURQUOIS

TURQUOISE WATER

WHEN THE CURRENT KEPT DRAGGING ME
WHEN THE CURRENT KEPT DRAGGING ME

I TRIED TO WILL MYSELF TO SWIM , AS IF I WAS PARTING THE WATER WITH MY HANDS

BUT THE OCEAN’S ABYSS HAS DECIDED MY FATE
BUT THE OCEAN’S ABYSS HAS DECIDED MY FATE

VERY SLOWLY THE WATER FILLED THE LAST SPACE IN MY LUNGS

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AND, AS MY LAST SURVIVAL INSTINCT SURGED, I GARGLED THE WATER INSIDE ME WHILE CHOKING ON IT.

IN JUST A WHILE, I SAW MYSELF FLOATING, EYES WIDE OPEN
WITH PUPILS AS BLACK AS COAL.
MY HAIR LOOKED LIKE A BLACK CLOUD SURROUNDING MY FACE
DANCING TO THE MOVEMENT OF THE
SEA

MY BODY SEEMED LIKE IT WAS FLOATING IN SPACE

SPACE

WITH THE WATER GLISTENING LIKE STARS AND THE SUN’S REFLECTION AS A BURSTING NEBULA.

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MY DEATH WAS SO UTTERLY DEVASTATINGLY BEAUTIFUL.

OR ANYONE WHO FINDS MY GHOSTLY VESSEL, MAY THEY FIND THE BEAUTY THAT ONLY DEATH CAN GIVE

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