A Devastatingly Beautiful Death
By Anne Nunez Zeygerman
By Anne Nunez Zeygerman
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We fear DEATH.<br />
It is something that is often unexplored. We have books and religions<br />
explaining the after life and what happens after one’s death. But the<br />
mere act of dying is often portrayed as morbid and painful.<br />
<strong>Death</strong>, in itself, is an act of change. It is an act of morphing and of<br />
moving from one point to another. And with change comes pain.<br />
I have often pondered the existence of pain and suffering. It is<br />
something that we naturally try to avoid or overcome but, no matter<br />
what we do, the fact remains that death is a part of human existence.<br />
Without it, we never truly feel happiness much like light cannot exist<br />
without darkness.<br />
I have come to embrace it as a hidden blessing. After all, it is only<br />
when we experience pain and suffering that we come to know the<br />
true value of happiness.<br />
Losing a loved one is one of the worst forms of pain a human being<br />
can experience. When someone close to us is near death, their<br />
demise is very rarely discussed; we fear it coming true. But death<br />
is not something to shy away from. Instead, it should be explored,<br />
revered, and viewed as a blessing for, without it, we would not value<br />
life and all that which enriches it.<br />
In Homer’s The Iliad, it is written - “The gods envy us. They envy us<br />
because we’re mortal, because any moment may be our last. Everything<br />
is more beautiful because we’re doomed. You will never be<br />
lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.”<br />
Life is beautiful because we know it will end.<br />
This book is an exploration of that: the beauty that we only find in<br />
death.
DEDICATED TO LOLO REY AND PAPA ALEKS
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I WAS SWIMMING IN THE PACIFIC’S TURQUOISE WATER<br />
I WAS SWIMMING IN THE PACIFIC’S TURQUOISE WATER<br />
I WAS SWIMMING IN THE PACIFIC’S TURQUOISE WATER<br />
I WAS SWIMMING IN THE PACIFIC’S TURQUOIS
TURQUOISE WATER
WHEN THE CURRENT KEPT DRAGGING ME<br />
WHEN THE CURRENT KEPT DRAGGING ME
I TRIED TO WILL MYSELF TO SWIM , AS IF I WAS PARTING THE WATER WITH MY HANDS
BUT THE OCEAN’S ABYSS HAS DECIDED MY FATE<br />
BUT THE OCEAN’S ABYSS HAS DECIDED MY FATE
VERY SLOWLY THE WATER FILLED THE LAST SPACE IN MY LUNGS
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AND, AS MY LAST SURVIVAL INSTINCT SURGED, I GARGLED THE WATER INSIDE ME WHILE CHOKING ON IT.
IN JUST A WHILE, I SAW MYSELF FLOATING, EYES WIDE OPEN<br />
WITH PUPILS AS BLACK AS COAL.<br />
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MY DEATH WAS SO UTTERLY DEVASTATINGLY BEAUTIFUL.
OR ANYONE WHO FINDS MY GHOSTLY VESSEL, MAY THEY FIND THE BEAUTY THAT ONLY DEATH CAN GIVE
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