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172 BLACK SHEEP.He hacl to remember the hours during whichhe had waited for Deane's coming, for the paymentof the promised money;he had to rememberhow they yvaned, and left him sick with disappointment,maddened with apprehension;howhe had determined he yvould keep the second appointmentwith Deane: he did not fear his failingin that, because it yvas for his own pleasure;and then, for the first time in his life, had feltphysically unable to endure suspense, to keep upappearances. He had to remember how he hadshrunk from the coarse insolence with which heknew Deane would sport with his fears and hissuspense in the presence of George Dallas, unconsciousof their mutual position; how all-importantit was that, until he had wrung fromDeane the promised money, he should keep histemper.He had to remember how the idea thatthe man who had so far broken faith with himalready-, and might break faith with him altogether,and so ruin him utterly (for if he hadfailed then, and been detected, hope would havebeen at an end for him), yvas within a few yardsof him, perhaps with the promised money in his