Come Follow To You, Vol 1 - Oshorajneesh.com

I have tried the fourth. That has also never been tried. The fourth is that half ofmy life I have worked myself as John the Baptist, and now half of my life I willfunction as a Christ. That is the fourth possibility: to prepare the ground and tosow it also, to sow the seeds.There are problems about it also; it is impossible to find a way which has noproblems. It has its own benefits, it has its own defects. The benefit is that I amboth, so I am, in a way, totally free. Whatsoever I have done in my first step Ihave done knowing perfectly well what the second step is going to be. John theBaptist in me was perfectly aware of the Christ who was going to follow, theywere in a deep harmony. They are one person; there is no problem about it. SoJohn the Baptist in me could not create any limitations for the Jesus to follow -- atotal freedom.And no Vivekanand is going to follow me. I am my own Vivekanand and I ammy own John the Baptist, so nobody can put a limitation on me when I am gone.And I am positive: if Krishnamurti is VIA NEGATIVA, I am VIA POSITIVA. Ihave accepted both the roles and I have a certain freedom even Krishnamurticannot have. He has to always deny, and denial in itself becomes a worry, a deepanxiety. I have nothing to deny; I just have to say yes to the total.But there are problems, and the greatest problem is that I will always becontradictory. Whatsoever John the Baptist has said, the Christ in me has tocontradict it. I will always be contradictory.For many years I was moving around, reaching to every person, whomsoeverhad any capacity to grow. Nobody ever thought that someday the wanderer inme would simply sit in his closed room and would not even come out of theroom -- contradictory! For years I was talking in terms of revolution: of course,John the Baptist has to talk that way. Then suddenly I stopped talking aboutrevolution, the society, the welfare of humanity; I forgot all about it. Now onlythe individual exists.Contradictory. If you look you can find two currents parallel, and the firstcurrent has been continuously contradicted by the other current. For those manyyears the Acharya, the John the Baptist, was doing one thing. Now the Bhagwan,something totally different, is doing a very contradictory thing.It will be impossible later on to decide whether this man was one or two. And Isuspect that somebody is going to suspect someday that this man was two,because the contradictions are so naked and there is no way to resolve them. Thisis the trouble with me -- but somebody had to try the fourth and I am happy thatI tried it. On this earth everything has its own problem, so you cannot escapefrom the problem. From somewhere or other the problem will enter, so it is onlya question of choice -- whatsoever fits you.This fits me perfectly. To be free to contradict is a great phenomenon becausethen I am not worried at all about what I say. I don't keep any accounts, I neednot be worried about what I said yesterday. I can contradict: this is a greatfreedom.Come Follow To You Vol 1Osho