Live on love alone.…somehow (to my consternation, to my dismay, to my incomprehension) acquire material form,body, substance, as a mercurial incarnation of sorts, concrete yet incorporeal, palpable yet without definition,tangible yet without proof and without trace save for the meaning that is communicated to me with words yetwithout words, but without doubt or ambiguity, mint-fresh and bell-clear. I understand, but I don’tunderstand. I hear and see the message, but I fail to comprehend. How am I to ‘live on love alone’? How?Is it literal or merely figurative? Is love to be my guiding principle or my sustenance? I fall on my knees andweep, and weep, and weep. Because I now know, I know, I know. I know what I must do and I am afraid. Iam alone. I am human. I am of flesh and blood. I am a mortal and I’ve been told to be divine. I rise fromthe stirred sand mortally divine, divinely mortal.I have been surprised in a state of purity – having been purified by travails, isolation, fasting - andhave been transported to a higher state of purity. I am too moved, too alive, too stirred to the core and tootransformed to go back to sleep, too transformed to go back to life. Instead, I slide inside the kayak naked asthe night and paddle into the open to witness the sunrise without the obstruction of land, withoutobstructions of any kind; wanting to prolongue the state of transcendence and the feeling of exaltation,wanting to keep open the door to that “other world.” The other world being the truth of this world. I watchthe day being born from a sea of tranquility and with a heart of serenity.From the hush of the night rises a silent sun to bring forth a soundless day over a mute horizon andinto my quiet soul. From the blueness of night rises an orange sun to bring forth a yellow day over a crimsonhorizon and into my light-flooded soul. From the coolness of night rises a hot sun to bring forth a fresh dayover a crisp horizon and into my consecrated soul.The day finds me naked in the kayak, staring at the rising ring of fire with dried tears in my eyes. Itis a day like no other and a perfect image of the state of my being, as though nature is the reflection of mysoul, or its allegory; the moment in which to define myself against an entire universe.Today, the landscape is at my mercy and I am merciful. And the seascape is benign for I ambenevolent. The air is breathless and the water immovable and time stands still because I ordain it. I ambreathless and immovable because time has ordained it when it stood still. Nature is my meditation and I amits premeditation. Neither one subordinates the other in its psychology, in its reach. My text and nature’s areverbally identical and so the end result is irrefutable, indubitable truth: knowledge without antecedents. Theday is spurned by the spontaneous alliance and subliminal convergence of chance, nature’s and mine, whichbegot an analogue world of un-digital beauty, the pure nonsense and pure wisdom of nature, the chaos andthe order. Swept along by the inertia of our arrested fantasies, I feel solitaire yet accompanied, accompaniedin solitude. I have crossed oceans of time to find this moment or to be found by this moment. In a sense Ino longer know where I end and the ocean begins, where time ends and I begin.It is this otherworldly and inexplicable experience that has given me the strength to go withoutfood for weeks and even months at a time and has endowed me with the resolve to go against thegrain and against the entire international system, which is tantamount to going against the world.And it is this same source that I will draw upon to persuade the world to change course, just as Iwas asked to do in a second epiphany that I will describe in tomorrow’s update since it is almostmidnight and I am too tired to continue writing.God does work in mysterious ways, even on an agnostic like me.130
DAY 31(Monday, 19 May 2014)MISSION POSSIBLEIt is DAY 31 of my hunger strike and I now weigh 76.5 Kg or 168 pounds and 10 ounces. Wehave secured funding for two more weeks of hunger strike and I have finished sending my letterto 218 cardinals after spending two days mining the internet for their emails.I continue to be in great shape but am of course somewhat physically weakened and as a resultfelt a little dizzy walking to St. Peter’s and back today, especially since I picked up the pace tokeep warm on this cloudy and somewhat cool afternoon.Yesterday, I described my first epiphany, which gave me the strength to endure the trials andtribulations of the past five years and the privations of this and previous hunger strikes. Today, Iwill recount my second epiphany, which happened in the south of Brazil at the stunninglybeautiful and gargantuan Iguaçu Falls a few months after the first, but during the same one-yearjourney around the world.I would have liked to let my diary describe it, as I lack the right words now, but all myproperty, including my intellectual property and the book I wrote at the end of my journeydescribing this event, has been confiscated by the Canadian authorities and never returned tome.While the first epiphany gave me the strength to endure the trials to come, the second gave mean inkling of what I was expected to do. It happened on a clear night as I walked along thegorge of the river mesmerized by the sublime spectacle of a dozen gigantic waterfalls. Themist rose into the night sky and formed a rainbow in the moonlight, a phenomenon I havenever seen before or since. In watching the churning river, deafened by the roar, I was struckby an insight that came to me with the same force and clarity as the tumble of the immensevolume of water before me: that I must “be the drop of water that changes the course ofthe river”. The message and the mission were unmistakeably clear and they came with asevere warning, namely that if I lack the courage to pursue it to the end I will be denied thejoy of being by the side of my two children. The mystery is that at that time my two boys,Ben and Oliver, had not been born and I was still single. I don’t know how to explain this andI have long given up trying, other then to resign myself to the time honoured adage that Godworks in mysterious ways. But despite the lack of logic, I took the warning to heart since Iwas allowed to feel, if only for an instant, the searing pain of the loss to come.I am not a religious man, but I cannot deny the spiritual nature of these two epiphanies, theonly such events I have ever experienced. They altered the core of my being and there is onlyone explanation. God spoke to me.131
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