<strong>Notes</strong> <strong>from</strong> <strong>the</strong> <strong>Underground</strong><strong>the</strong> face. He is stupid. I am not disputing that, but perhaps<strong>the</strong> normal man should be stupid, how do you know? Perhapsit is very beautiful, in fact. And I am <strong>the</strong> more persuadedof that suspicion, if one can call it so, by <strong>the</strong> fact thatif you take, for instance, <strong>the</strong> anti<strong>the</strong>sis of <strong>the</strong> normal man,that is, <strong>the</strong> man of acute consciousness, who has come, ofcourse, not out of <strong>the</strong> lap of nature but out of a retort (this isalmost mysticism, gentlemen, but I suspect this, too), thisretort-made man is sometimes so nonplussed in <strong>the</strong> presenceof his anti<strong>the</strong>sis that with all his exaggerated consciousnesshe genuinely thinks of himself as a mouse and not aman. It may be an acutely conscious mouse, yet it is a mouse,while <strong>the</strong> o<strong>the</strong>r is a man, and <strong>the</strong>refore, et caetera, et caetera.And <strong>the</strong> worst of it is, he himself, his very own self, looks onhimself as a mouse; no one asks him to do so; and that is animportant point.Now let us look at this mouse in action. Let us suppose,for instance, that it feels insulted, too (and it almost alwaysdoes feel insulted), and wants to revenge itself, too. Theremay even be a greater accumulation of spite in it than inl’homme de la nature et de la verite. The base and nasty desireDostoyevskyto vent that spite on its assailant rankles perhaps even morenastily in it than in l’homme de la nature et de la verite. Forthrough his innate stupidity <strong>the</strong> latter looks upon his revengeas justice pure and simple; while in consequence of hisacute consciousness <strong>the</strong> mouse does not believe in <strong>the</strong> justiceof it. To come at last to <strong>the</strong> deed itself, to <strong>the</strong> very act ofrevenge. Apart <strong>from</strong> <strong>the</strong> one fundamental nastiness <strong>the</strong> lucklessmouse succeeds in creating around it so many o<strong>the</strong>rnastinesses in <strong>the</strong> form of doubts and questions, adds to <strong>the</strong>one question so many unsettled questions that <strong>the</strong>re inevitablyworks up around it a sort of fatal brew, a stinking mess,made up of its doubts, emotions, and of <strong>the</strong> contempt spatupon it by <strong>the</strong> direct men of action who stand solemnly aboutit as judges and arbitrators, laughing at it till <strong>the</strong>ir healthysides ache. Of course <strong>the</strong> only thing left for it is to dismiss allthat with a wave of its paw, and, with a smile of assumedcontempt in which it does not even itself believe, creep ignominiouslyinto its mouse-hole. There in its nasty, stinking,underground home our insulted, crushed and ridiculedmouse promptly becomes absorbed in cold, malignant and,above all, everlasting spite. For forty years toge<strong>the</strong>r it will10
<strong>Notes</strong> <strong>from</strong> <strong>the</strong> <strong>Underground</strong>remember its injury down to <strong>the</strong> smallest, most ignominiousdetails, and every time will add, of itself, details still moreignominious, spitefully teasing and tormenting itself withits own imagination. It will itself be ashamed of its imaginings,but yet it will recall it all, it will go over and over every detail,it will invent unheard of things against itself, pretending thatthose things might happen, and will forgive nothing. Maybeit will begin to revenge itself, too, but, as it were, piecemeal,in trivial ways, <strong>from</strong> behind <strong>the</strong> stove, incognito, withoutbelieving ei<strong>the</strong>r in its own right to vengeance, or in <strong>the</strong> successof its revenge, knowing that <strong>from</strong> all its efforts at revengeit will suffer a hundred times more than he on whomit revenges itself, while he, I daresay, will not even scratchhimself. On its deathbed it will recall it all over again, withinterest accumulated over all <strong>the</strong> years and …. But it is justin that cold, abominable half despair, half belief, in that consciousburying oneself alive for grief in <strong>the</strong> underworld forforty years, in that acutely recognized and yet partly doubtfulhopelessness of one’s position, in that hell of unsatisfieddesires turned inward, in that fever of oscillations, of resolutionsdetermined for ever and repented of again a minuteDostoyevskylater—that <strong>the</strong> savour of that strange enjoyment of which Ihave spoken lies. It is so subtle, so difficult of analysis, thatpersons who are a little limited, or even simply persons ofstrong nerves, will not understand a single atom of it. “Possibly,”you will add on your own account with a grin, “peoplewill not understand it ei<strong>the</strong>r who have never received a slapin <strong>the</strong> face,” and in that way you will politely hint to me thatI, too, perhaps, have had <strong>the</strong> experience of a slap in <strong>the</strong> facein my life, and so I speak as one who knows. I bet that youare thinking that. But set your minds at rest, gentlemen, Ihave not received a slap in <strong>the</strong> face, though it is absolutely amatter of indifference to me what you may think about it.Possibly, I even regret, myself, that I have given so few slapsin <strong>the</strong> face during my life. But enough ... not ano<strong>the</strong>r wordon that subject of such extreme interest to you. I will continuecalmly concerning persons with strong nerves who donot understand a certain refinement of enjoyment. Thoughin certain circumstances <strong>the</strong>se gentlemen bellow <strong>the</strong>ir loudestlike bulls, though this, let us suppose, does <strong>the</strong>m <strong>the</strong> greatestcredit, yet, as I have said already, confronted with <strong>the</strong>impossible <strong>the</strong>y subside at once. The impossible means <strong>the</strong>11
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