hence, indeed, its apparent strength the violence <strong>of</strong> a compressed force. If we lookmore closely at the dipsomaniac, we shall see that it is also a rejection and runningaway—in short, unmistakable fear. For his secret is not that he makes for drink andtakes delight in it as desirous people make for and take delight in that which theydesire. Of delight there is very little in his life, and as his dipsomania grows he cannotbe said even ordinarily to like drink, still less to delight in it. But as his dipsomaniagrows, there is something which does grow along with it and proportionately to it,and it is that something which explains it. It is his fear or even horror, <strong>of</strong> life without drink.That life is a wild beast which pursues him, and his dipsomania is just a runningaway from it. He desires or makes for drink only in the sense in which we make fora refuge; drink is for him a refuge from life. His repetition <strong>of</strong> the doses is the actionnot <strong>of</strong> a desirous lover but <strong>of</strong> a coward desperately defending a position with arepeating rifle against an oncoming foe.We may sum up by saying that greed is diseased desire. Diseased desire isimpure desire—that is, desire mixed with its contrary, fear. In its extreme ormaniacal form it is almost wholly fear masquerading as desire. <strong>The</strong> marks <strong>of</strong> diseaseare: compulsiveness, violence, narrowness, repetitiveness, monotony, inelasticity,pleonectic grabbing, isolation, tyranny, defensiveness, contraction, withdrawal,rejection.SELLING ONE’S SOULDipsomania, cleptomania morphinomania, onanomania, nymphomania,satyromania—these and some other diseased desires like them have received the title<strong>of</strong> mania <strong>of</strong>ficially or technically.* But common speech, which is largely moulded bythe common perception <strong>of</strong> resemblances important for ordinary life, has fixed uponthe similarities between these and far more widespread desires, and has extendedthe title to the latter.Commonly we may call a mania any desire when we are “attached” to its object,or have “set our heart” upon its object, or have “sold our soul” to or for it. We maysell our soul to or for anything—power, riches, glory, skill, knowledge, “goodness”even, in the sense <strong>of</strong> a fixed code deciding what shall stand for goodness. <strong>The</strong> liferesulting from selling our soul may be a very rich one reckoned quantitatively—that is to say, it may cover a very large field <strong>of</strong> manifold activities. But somewhereor other in it there is something that is starved, or subjugated, or treated merelyas a means to that for which the soul has been sold. That something may be theimagination in the busy man <strong>of</strong> affairs or in the scholar; or it may be the intellect inthe man <strong>of</strong> feeling; most generally it is something in the affections. Whatever it is,it marks a shrinking from developing to the full all the possibilities <strong>of</strong> that life; it is asign <strong>of</strong> impurity or <strong>of</strong> the admixture <strong>of</strong> fear, and acts like a piece <strong>of</strong> dead flesh upona large and fine body, gradually infecting its quality or lifeblood. It is that infecting* For an illuminating account <strong>of</strong> them see Fritz Kunkel in Charakter, Leiden und Heilung, section 17.50
impurity which is denoted by the sinister phrase “selling our soul.” What we sell isour very life; what we buy comes to stand for life and becomes, like drink, a refugefrom life.PARTICULAR DESIRESBut every particular desire, whether called mania or not, is by its very nature,it would seem, diseased or impure because mixed with fear. A desire, I have said, isa seeking or making for life more abundant, an adventuring forth, an expanding. Imust modify that statement by pointing out that a particular desire (a desire for aparticular thing or class <strong>of</strong> thing) is only a making for those possibilities <strong>of</strong> life whichinclude its own particular satisfaction; it is at the same time a shunning or rejection<strong>of</strong> all those possibilities, far greater in number, which do not allow <strong>of</strong> its satisfaction,and it is a rejection <strong>of</strong> them however excellent they be in themselves. Thus, if Ihave the desire to do something (say to climb a mountain or obtain a job) or to besomething (say to be a scholar), I naturally tend to make for those conjunctions <strong>of</strong>circumstances which mean the realisation <strong>of</strong> that desire; but, unless I am correctedby something else, it may be by another desire, I no less naturally tend to shun,fear, deplore all those conjunctions which mean that my desire will not be realised.Since the number <strong>of</strong> these conjunctions is vast, it is notorious that every particulardesire is attended by a mighty train <strong>of</strong> fears, worries, suspicions, anxieties. Further,every particular desire, in excluding a vast number <strong>of</strong> conjunctions, by that veryfact is at war with a vast number <strong>of</strong> other desires—all those which make for theseexcluded conjunctions—and seeks to establish a tyranny over them.* Thus, to takeone example, if I desire to obtain a pr<strong>of</strong>essorship, I am apt to shun all activitiesand thwart all desires, however excellent, which might interfere with my success. Itend also to be afraid, jealous or suspicious <strong>of</strong> all possible rivals and to thwart theiractivities and desires.If fear, a negative thing, is present in desires which present themselves as positive,and constitutes their negativity, it is still more likely to be operative in attitudes whichdo not even claim to be anything but negative—attitudes like dislike, hatred, anger,annoyance, indignation, resentment, scorn. That there is fear (as the term has beendefined here) in them when they are what I have called negative Godfeeling, isobvious, for then they constitute preeminently a running away from life, since God isabsolute life. But do they constitute a running away from life when they are directedagainst evil, disease, death itself ? <strong>The</strong>y do, for they constitute an abandonment orrejection <strong>of</strong> the effort to heal or quicken what is diseased or dead, and that effortis the attribute <strong>of</strong> absolute life or omnipotence. It is notorious that the strength <strong>of</strong>the feeling in these attitudes is in direct ratio to our shrinking from exertion, and ininverse ratio to our readiness for effort and to our confidence. It is true that when we* What I have called the impurity <strong>of</strong> particular desires is the phenomenon which is covered, but alsolargely misinterpreted, under the term “ambivalence” in textbooks <strong>of</strong> Psychology.51
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