I AM THE LIMITGod is not Myself in another very important sense—in the sense that I am apower over against Him, the power to resist and exclude Him. It is in that capacitythat the self has so far emerged as the term correlative to God. It is the limit toabsolute and infinite power, love, wisdom, etc.SELF CONSCIOUSNESSWe may arrive at the same conclusion if we merely consider the ordinarymeaning <strong>of</strong> “self-consciousness,” once more drawing deep philosophy from commonspeech. <strong>The</strong> self <strong>of</strong> which I am conscious, when I am what is commonly called “selfconscious,”is not absolutely efficient or loving or wise. In so far as I am any <strong>of</strong> thesethings I am not conscious <strong>of</strong> myself at all, being wholly taken up with whateverI am doing or with the person I am attending to. When I am self-conscious I amconscious <strong>of</strong> something wrong; or, at any rate, there is something wrong when I amself-conscious.Self-consciousness has, in fact, been called a disease <strong>of</strong> consciousness. Thatis why so many counsel us to avoid it, urging us not to be morbid, not to dwellon our own emotions, motives, faults, but to turn our gaze upon the world aboutus and become extravert. An admirable counsel this would be if the people whoare “extraverts” in this sense were not the most easily wrecked by some <strong>of</strong> themost elementary motives or emotions, <strong>of</strong> which they are as ignorant as they arepowerless to deal with them when at last they become aware <strong>of</strong> these unfamiliarphenomena, and which finally bring them to the extreme <strong>of</strong> morbidity, namelydisastrous “nervous breakdowns.” <strong>The</strong> truth is that self-consciousness is not a disease<strong>of</strong> consciousness but the symptom <strong>of</strong> such a disease (hence it is also self-sickness);and the thing to do with a symptom is, neither to ignore it nor vainly try to cureit, but to study it so that we may find out and cure the disease. <strong>The</strong>refore, instead<strong>of</strong> running away from self-consciousness, so long as we have anything left to causeit—that is to say, so long as we are not yet perfect—we should rather seek to deepenit so that it may become self-knowledge and acuter self-sickness. It is, however, trueenough that self-consciousness and self-knowledge are useless by themselves, justas the knowledge <strong>of</strong> physical symptoms and diseases is useless by itself. Just as thelatter knowledge requires to be supplemented by the knowledge <strong>of</strong> health so theformer consciousness and knowledge need to be made correlative always to theconsciousness and knowledge <strong>of</strong> God—that is, <strong>of</strong> absolute health. This is what weare trying to do in these pages.** Self-consciousness is, <strong>of</strong> course, the same as the consciousness <strong>of</strong> sin. But I prefer the former tothe latter term, partly because my thought came to me in the former, but largely because, whereasno one can deny his own acquaintance with self-consciousness, the consciousness <strong>of</strong> sin, on the onehand, is something which most men regard as the concern <strong>of</strong> “religious people,” while, on the otherhand, the sin <strong>of</strong> which most “religious people” are conscious is that <strong>of</strong> the irreligious.48
DISEASE OR FEAR: MANIAWhat is wrong with the self ? To this question most people would reply, “Just theself. It is so selfish.” If they were asked what constituted selfishness, they would say,“Greed,”Now, greed is a certain kind <strong>of</strong> desire. What kind it is we shall best see if welook at it in its extreme form—namely, when it is a craving or mania. A maniais admittedly something diseased. But according to this reply the self qua self issomething diseased or wrong; that is why the consciousness <strong>of</strong> the self makes ussick. We may therefore expect to find the self qua self maniacal or something likemaniacal.What are the characteristics <strong>of</strong> a mania, say <strong>of</strong> dipsomania? <strong>The</strong> desire fordrink which is called dipsomania is, in the first place, compulsive: the dipsomaniacis its victim; he cannot help himself, he feels; he must have his drink, or else—soit seems to him—something terrible will happen, the end <strong>of</strong> the world. Closelyconnected with the compulsiveness <strong>of</strong> the desire would seem to be what we maycall its narrowness or rigidity or inelasticity or lack <strong>of</strong> plasticity. By this I mean thatthere is little or no variety in the modes <strong>of</strong> its satisfaction. Whereas ordinary thirst,for example, can be satisfied by water, tea, c<strong>of</strong>fee, etc., the drunkard’s “thirst” can besatisfied by alcohol only. Being incapable <strong>of</strong> seeking for variety, as most desires do,it replaces variety by infinity <strong>of</strong> repetition: it is marked by what I have elsewhere*called a pleonectic characteristic—the characteristic <strong>of</strong> Oliver Twist <strong>of</strong> asking for moreand more <strong>of</strong> the same thing without end. Lastly, it is Cyclopean and tyrannic: like aCyclops, it leads a solitary existence, neither helping, nor helped by, its neighbours,the other desires; like a tyrant, it tends to subjugate or slay its neighbours. It endsby infecting the whole <strong>of</strong> its victim’s life with its own characteristics, or rather byreducing the whole <strong>of</strong> his life to itself. Every activity becomes for him merely ameans to satisfying his desire for drink; it becomes for him something which is notitself real living, real living being just drinking.We understand, however, the inmost nature <strong>of</strong> greed only when we see that it isa fake or disguise. It seems to be very strong desire, so much so that <strong>of</strong>ten it is calledby the name <strong>of</strong> what is desire par excellence, namely passion (so people speak <strong>of</strong> a“passion” for drink, for gambling, etc.). But, when we look beneath the surface, wediscover that in reality it is largely made up <strong>of</strong> what is the contrary <strong>of</strong> desire. Desireis a seeking or making for life more abundant, an adventuring forth, an expanding;its contrary is a shrinking or running away from life, a rejection, a clinging to ordefending <strong>of</strong> a fixed position—in short, it is fear, for fear consists in just these things,namely shrinking, running away, rejecting, defending, contracting. Now greed, tojudge by what we have seen so far, is clearly a contracting <strong>of</strong> life (it contracts thedrunkard’s life to one point, drink, or to a series <strong>of</strong> repeated points, drinking bouts);* <strong>The</strong> Ethics <strong>of</strong> Power, especially pp. 113-14 and 228-9.49
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