Out of Captivity : Surviving 1,967 Days in the Colombian Jungle

Reunited 341Shane, however, had gone silent. I relied on my faith and told myselfthat whatever was meant to happen had happened. I didn’t want to believethat Shane had moved on, but there was little evidence to the contrary.Keith and I discussed the issue endlessly, and I came to the conclusionthat I was essentially a single man again. I was still determinedto be a good father to Destiney, Cody, and Joey, but I couldn’t hide fromthe truth anymore: My wife had taken her life in a new direction.Over the last three years in captivity, I’d been good about followingthe plan to reform my life that I’d set into motion all the way back at theNew Camp. Coming to terms with my relationship with Shane seemeda necessary step in that plan. I couldn’t live with illusions of any kind.In keeping with this, I also had to confront the prejudices that I’d developedin camp. The nights that Ingrid and I had spent listening tothe radio together had opened my eyes to the way that I’d rushed tojudgment on her. My initial impression had been pretty presumptuous,and I wanted to be open to the possibility that there was more toher than I’d thought.Because Ingrid had basically been in isolation since we arrived at theReunion Camp, I hadn’t been able to give her a second chance. I wantedto believe that the person I’d shared the radio with, the woman who’dcomforted me when I’d seen the video of Shane, was the real Ingrid.In some ways, I needed to believe that people were good-hearted butoccasionally did bad things. That’s what I’d concluded about my wife,and if I could feel that way about someone I’d known for almost twentyyears, I could do it for someone I’d only spent a few months with.A few days after we built the volleyball court, I decided to deal withthis issue directly, and I approached Enrique.“I want to be able to speak to whoever I want to speak to. None ofus like having these restrictions placed on us. It’s just going to causeproblems for us all.”Enrique shook his head and issued the no-surprise response. “I’ve receivedorders that the other prisoners not be allowed to speak with her.”