Fore more urdu books visit www.4Urdu.com

More oxford books @ www.OxfordeBook.comFore more urdu books visit www.4Urdu.com240WHO IS JOHN GALT? 1957–1968He spoke in circles, contradicted himself, and was unable to state histhoughts clearly. Most distressing of all, when Rand asked Nathan howhe felt about her, he responded, “I don’t know.” Nor could he explain hisfeelings for Barbara or Patrecia. The man Rand hailed as her teacher ofpsychology was utterly divorced from his inner state. After a year of thisRand was losing hope. “He makes me feel dead,” she wrote in her journal.61 Then in June 1968 Nathan presented Rand with a letter in whichhe stated clearly that their age difference made it impossible for him toresume an affair with her.Nathan’s letter was a devastating rejection not only of Rand, but ofthe Objectivist philosophy itself. Objectivism taught that sex was neverphysical; it was always inspired by a deeper recognition of shared values,a sense that the other embodied the highest human achievement. Notonly was Rand emotionally crushed, she now worried that Nathan wasan inadequate representative of her life’s work. He was caught in thesnare of physical attraction, which spoke volumes to his emotional andspiritual confusion. And he had struck hardest at Rand’s deepest insecuritiesby telling her she was no longer attractive to him.Even after the letter, Rand clung to the hope of some relationshipwith Nathan. So quick to break with others who angered her, she wentto extraordinary lengths to preserve their connection. “Love is exceptionmaking,” she had written in The Fountainhead, and now she carved outan exception for the man to whom she had dedicated Atlas Shrugged. 62She and Nathan would continue as business associates, understandingthat they would never recapture the personal closeness of their earlyyears. NBI and The Objectivist would continue unchanged. Nathanwould work on his inability to live by Objectivist principles, and hewould agree to give up seeing Patrecia, the source of his emotionaltroubles. Rand still believed that their relationship was platonic but suspectedthat Nathan had buried feelings for Patrecia. It was yet anotherinstance of his failing to check his premises or think rationally.This unstable accord held together, barely, for most of the summer.Ayn and Nathan continued to edit articles together, but the long therapysessions were over. Nathan began seeing Allan Blumenthal instead.Blumenthal had a medical degree but no formal training in psychologybeyond what Nathan taught him. Now he served as Nathan’s confessor.Nathan admitted his love for Patrecia, but not the affair. Rand grew