Thuja occidentalis

Thuja occidentalis Sycotic, Conifer family“I feel isolated, but no one can know the real me”If they really knew who I was (dog poop), they would leaveDeception (“Hiding who they are”, “to cover up some internal flaw”)Great big fear of being exposed (Fear of Embarrassment)A wild crazy feeling insideFixed ideas (as long as I follow these rules, I should be okay)Fragility, When you break, all is loss, you fallSensation of separation, isolation, disassociationA longing and longing for connectionMight have 10 groups of friends, and be different with eachAn internal emptiness“Don’t Expose Me”vacinations“Inside rotten, growth distorted” Warts“Empty”Gurlging, animal inside, fragile1. Better in warm, damp weather(unusual)2. Ailments after vaccinations (sensitivityto penetration)3. Warts, bumps, lumps, growths, fattycysts, lycoma (big fatty bump)4. A lot of sweat (sweat on uncoveredparts, sweat in sleep; very aware of smell;to cover that up) especially in the genitals– leads to skin eruptions5. Teeth – early degeneration, even firstteeth can be rotten, crumbling6. Hair (not right, premature gray, not whereit should be)7. Sentences will trail off8. Vertigo, when closing eyes9. Abdomen rumbling, as if somethingalive inside10. Constipation, “bashful stool”; Diarrhea gurlging in morning11. Sensation limbs fragile; made of glass; feels like limbs made of wood12. Coition prevented by extreme sensitivity of vagina13. Food cravings – onions, disturbed from raw onions , will pick them out14. Urinary problems (dribbling after urination, discoloration on trousers and this is embarrassing; Forked urinarystream)15. Skin; looks dirty; Warts (that they remove, are “ugly”)16. Toenails that are brittle and crack horizontally, distorted, Athlete’s foot, Fingernails, horizontal splits, corrugated,Cracks in the heals

Thuja occidentalis Sycotic, Conifer familyFearsAbout being exposedof being exposed, fear of breaking, fear on seeinggreen stripes.Will not expose themselves in case takingVery domineering at homeAssholes at homeI’m in chargeSankaran TidbitsFeel they are really delicateI like this but I’m afraid it can hurt meMy body being more delicate can be hurt by slightlystronger medicineI hope your medicine is not too strong(Sankaran)Fear that you will fall from grace in societyWhat will people think of me?A sense of brittleness of one’s social imageYou avoid social contactAvoid anything that could affect this situationJerk; during act of falling asleepIn jerk, sensation of falling in this jerkHair in unusual parts, coming out of ear, of middle of fingersBack ache especially when getting up form sitting position, cannot stand straightCorrugated nailsFleshy warts on throat, back of neck in arm partsFragility of body, as if has to be handled like glassPlease make sure you do not give me strong medicine, because I can not take itI have to be cautious, I have to be avoiding, so brittle, just a little bit of ice creamNeed to be strong and hard to protect against this(VO)The idea of being challenged, he doesn’t have it in him, the capacity to meet the challengeWill quit, will give up, will leaveCan’t manage any confrontationSense of getting older – getting thinner, loosing, that fragilityThey don’t have any inner strengthScared of your imageNot able to bring it forthBacking away from the challengesCase: Confer (Sankaran Course)47 y/o rough, dry eruption on leg, blackish color on skinIf it increases then I will be disfiguredSo far only on my legs, what if on my faceHow will I stand up in front of people, other people look fine and beautifulWhy me, cure me fastAnticipation: what if something happens

Thuja occidentalis Sycotic, Conifer familyFear of thing being exposed: suppose on part not covered, thenwhatSycoticThuj: Eruptions on covered parts (so people don’t see)ThemesInside is rotten, growth distortedGrowths (ugly)Dual, HidingGeneral• Ailments after vaccinations• Warts, bumps, lumps, growths, fatty cysts, lycoma(big fatty bump)• Never well (overall health, colds flu; or chronic, seizures,etc. ) since vaccinations (sensitivity to penetration)• A lot of sweat (very aware of smell of sweat – theyfeel people can smell the sweat, to cover that up) especiallyin the genitals – leads to skin eruptions (againwhich they are embarrassed about)• Recurring chronic otitis, chronic key (after vaccinations)Head• Teeth – early degeneration, even first teeth can berotten, crumbling (inside is rotten, inside is not good)• Hair (not right, premature gray)• Sentences will trail offG/IFood cravings – onions, disturbed from raw onions , willpick them outUrinary• Forked urinary stream• Urinary problems (dribbling after urination, discolorationon trousers and this is embarrassing)SkinWarts (that they want removed, burned off, are “ugly”)Extremities• Toenails that are brittle and crack horizontally• Toenails distorted• Athlete’s foot• Fingernails, horizontal splits, corrugatedCracks in the healsMental• Fixed ideas (as long as I follow these rules, I shouldbe okay)• Religious affections• Desire to please others (as their avoidance)• Compulsive response to problem, bringing severalpairs of underwear to hide it, if I do this I will be able tohide it• Feeling of being rotten inside• Dreams of falling (as if falling from grace)• Great fear of being exposed• Deception (Cover-up)• Sensation of separation• Sense of isolation• An internal emptiness• Feeling inside – a wild crazy feeling inside• If they only really knew who I was, they would leave• The feeling of fragility is very strongCase: Confer (Sankaran Course)47 y/o rough, dry eruption on leg, blackish color on skinIf it increases then I will be disfiguredSo far only on my legs, what if on my faceHow will I stand up in front of people, other people look fineand beautifulWhy me, cure me fastAnticipation: what if something happensFear of thing being exposed: suppose on part not covered, thenwhatSycoticThuj: Eruptions on covered parts (so people don’t see)

Sensation of separationSense of isolationA disassociationAn internal emptinessA longing and longing for connection“I’m in a group of people and I don’tfeel like I can connect with anybody”“Suddenly I’m with my wife of 20 yearsand suddenly I feel no connection”“I feel isolated, like there is nothinginside”Deep feelings of isolationWeaknessFragilityOf life and of their bodyThat his body is fragileThe feeling of fragility is very strongDelusion: his body is fragile, easily broken,snapped cracked,Delusion: the body is delicateDelusion: ThinDelusion: this body will breakDelusion: emaciatedDelusion they are made of glassSuddenly you become very careful – ifyou walk into a glass factoryToenails are brittle & crack horizontallyBone complaints: generally brittleBones: sensation of being brittleAs if whole body is thin and delicate andeasily could all dissolveWhen you break, all isloss, you fallThuja Mental StateSycoticA plant that behaves like a mineralFrom family of the conifers, arborvitaeHaving fixed ideas (a held delusion)That things will breakTo know me is to think I’m a pile of dogpoopThey want to hide who they areMight have 10 groups of friends, andbe different with each groupIf they only really knew who I was,they would leaveFixed ideas(old tale from India, boy who followedmothers instructions and wouldn’t budge)Conscientious about trifles(can’t let you through the door– monomania, fixed ideas)Can’t manage resistance ?(little things they are very carefulabout – not fastidious)Coloring book – if not right, theycould hide it behind the couchFixed ideas(as long as I follow these rules, Ishould be okay)Religious affectionsDreams of Falling“fall from grace”Everything completely falling apartA wild crazy feeling insideGrowths(expressions of these excesses)HidingAnd these things feel “ugly”I want to get them burned off, cut offI want to hide themDesire to please others(as their avoidance)Sensation that it is hollowThe trees become hollow on the inside,The tree might be green on the outermostlayerDeep feelings of emptiness“cut off”(hand gesture – as if behind glass)An empty feelingFeeling of an animal inside(comes from this feeling of hollownessand then any activity inside feels likean animal is in there)You see lots of DietaryproblemsDelusionIf they really saw insidethere would be nothing thereDeceptionThuja has a lot of deception“Cover up”to cover up some internal flawGreat big fear of being exposedCompulsive response to problem, bringingseveral pairs of underwear to hideit, if I do this I will be able to hide itSensitivity to things penetrating