114Brinker slid his fingers into the back pockets of his slacks. "This war's so technical they'vegot to use all kinds of machines, even sewing machines, don't you think so, Gene?""Well," Mr. Hadley went on emphatically, "I can't imagine any man in my time settling forduty on a sewing machine. I can't picture that at all." Then his temper switched tracks and hesmiled cordially again. "But then times change, and wars change. But men don't change, dothey? You boys are the image of me and my gang in the old days. It does me good to see you.What are you enlisting in, son," he said, meaning me, "the Marines, the Paratroops? There aredoggone many exciting things to enlist in these days. There's that bunch they call the Frogmen,underwater demolition stuff. I'd give something to be a kid again with all that to choose from.""I was going to wait and be drafted," I replied, trying to be polite and answer his questionhonestly, "but if I did that they might put me straight in the infantry, and that's not only thedirtiest but also the most dangerous branch of all, the worst branch of all. So I've joined theNavy and they're sending me to Pensacola. I'll probably have a lot of training, and I'll never seea foxhole. I hope.""Foxhole" was still a fairly new term and I wasn't sure Mr. Hadley knew what it meant. ButI saw that he didn't care for the sound of what I said. "And then Brinker," I added, "is all set forthe Coast Guard, which is good too." Mr. Hadley's scowl deepened, although his experiencedface partially masked it."You know, Dad," Brinker broke in, "the Coast Guard does some very rough stuff, puttingthe men on the beaches, all that dangerous amphibious stuff."His father nodded slightly, looking at the floor, and then said, "You have to do what youthink is the right thing, but just make sure it's the right thing in the long run, and not just for themoment. Your war memories will be with you forever, you'll be asked about them thousands oftimes after the war is over. People will get their respect for you from that—partly from that,don't get me wrong—but if you can say that you were up front where there was some realshooting going on, then that will mean a whole lot to you in years to come. I know you boyswant to see plenty of action, but don't go around talking too much about being comfortable,and which branch of the service has too much dirt and stuff like that. Now I know you—I feel Iknow you, Gene, as well as I know Brink here—but other people might misunderstand you.You want to serve, that's all. It's your greatest moment, greatest privilege, to serve yourcountry. We're all proud of you, and we're all—old guys like me—we're all darn jealous of youtoo."I could see that Brinker was more embarrassed by this than I was, but I felt it was hisresponsibility to answer it. "Well, Dad," he mumbled, "we'll do what we have to.""That's not a very good answer, Brink," he said in a tone struggling to remain reasonable."After all that's all we can do.""You can do more! A lot more. If you want a military record you can be proud of, you'll do aheck of a lot more than just what you have to. Believe me."
115Brinker sighed under his breath, his father stiffened, paused, then relaxed with an effort."Your mother's out in the car. I'd better get back to her. You boys clean up—ah, those shoes,"he added reluctantly, in spite of himself, having to, "those shoes, Brink, a little polish?—andwe'll see you at the Inn at six.""Okay, Dad."His father, left, trailing the faint, unfamiliar, prosperous aroma of his cigar."Dad keeps making that speech about serving the country," Brinker said apologetically, "Iwish to hell he wouldn't.""That's all right." I knew that part of friendship consisted in accepting a friend'sshortcomings, which sometimes included his parents."I'm enlisting," he went on, Tm going to 'serve' as he puts it, I may even get killed. But I'llbe damned if I'll have that Nathan Hale attitude of his about it. It's all that World War Imalarkey that gets me. They're all children about that war, did you never notice?" He floppedcomfortably into the chair which had been disconcerting his father. "It gives me a pain,personally. I'm not any kind of hero, and neither are you. And neither is the old man, and henever was, and I don't care what he says he almost did at Château-Thierry.""He's just trying to keep up with the times. He probably feels left out, being too old thistime.""Left out!" Brinker s eyes lighted up. "Left out! He and his crowd are responsible for it! Andwe're going to fight it!"I had heard this generation-complaint from Brinker before, so often that I finally identifiedthis as the source of his disillusionment during the winter, this generalized, faintly self-pityingresentment against millions of people he did not know. He did know his father, however, andso they were not getting along well now. In a way this was Finny's view, except that naturallyhe saw it comically, as a huge and intensely practical joke, played by fat and foolish old menbungling away behind the scenes.I could never agree with either of them. It would have been comfortable, but I could notbelieve it. Because it seemed clear that wars were not made by generations and their specialstupidities, but that wars were made instead by something ignorant in the human heart.Brinker went upstairs to continue his packing, and I walked over to the gym to clean out mylocker. As I crossed the Far Common I saw that it was rapidly becoming unrecognizable, withhuge green barrels placed at many strategic points, the ground punctuated by white markersidentifying offices and areas, and also certain less tangible things: a kind of snap in theatmosphere, a professional optimism, a conscious maintenance, of high morale. I myself hadoften been happy at Devon, but such times it seemed to me that afternoon were over now.Happiness had disappeared along with rubber, silk, and many other staples, to be replaced bythe wartime synthetic, high morale, for the Duration.
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