Diary 1963 - Murshid Sam's Living Stream

Diaries 1963August 17, 1963Dear Saladin:This to my diary and I would not burden you with it excepting you have sent “Zen Flesh,” ZenBones,”Hakuin. The series of dramas began with an attack on me made by a deviate who enteredthese rooms without ringing the bell. She came as a messenger from a person to whom I have givenBayat. First this women became an Adulteress and schemed against me, I never knew whether it wasbecause I did or I didn’t. Then she relented to become a Lesbian. The same all over. Now more! Andshe is becoming a Nun! My fault.Sunday, I received the box of spiritual papers and it has been necessary tie drop everything tofile them and I made most important discoveries which I have reported.This Week. Constant moving in and Out of persons who do not know whether this place is goingto be renovated or re-arranged or anything.Ex Landlady. One fracas with former sweetheart, last Money night. No sleep. Two days laterpersonal attack. Called police. Nothing cleared up except the lady moved out? or moved out, ormoved out.” No peace.New Landlady. Everything looked fine and I was to start to move today but she was attackedby a rival and banged up. So delay. Only the landlord promised to paint my rooms without costsand Move delayed.This on top of all else and last night the new tenant had the radio on till 5 a.m. no sleep. ThenI got up to work on the files and no matter how much thought I had to do, much more—no help ofany kind. And on top of that no paycheck and I may have to borrow money (my own.)Knowing this is the initiatory process one has to keep equal-minded and stop the nonsense oflecturing on the subjects.Moving from this neighborhood gets me from the Elijah Mohammed Muslims. Whatever betheir stand, I have never met anybody, for or against, who has thought through—all emotions everywhereand nothing but. You can understand why “Puck” wants to write (separate sheet) on TheDepraved New World.The book did not arrive and so not until Monday and between times I have to go back andforth to see my new quarters. Physically fine, and will probably eat Brown Rice and Bean Sprout onand on, but psychically very trying. Also for example, man from whom I ordered Murshid’s booksin mental hospital, cannot trace order. And fine time (?) at Buddhist meeting last Tuesday. Onlypeace at Yoga Center. Brought them Murshid’s plays which think will be produced within a year. Ifmy mind does not heal will merely copy POM’s books for the Orient, this brings solace.