Diary 1963 - Murshid Sam's Living Stream

Diaries 1963-4On previous occasions Nyogen Senzaki appeared, took over my being, threw thunderbolts andcaused confusion. Actually this is the work of Fudo Bostsu and it is no fun. You have to smash everybody,friend or foe, to get rid of illusion and stop talking about getting rid of illusion. There is a vastdifference between the thunderbolt and some of the “nice” dance patterns I have seen based on it.I have here and I’ll set more made, a picture of myself on top of the sacred mountain of Japan—no other Westerners have been there, seated between a Pl. Orientalis and a Pl. Occidentalis withFuji-san in the background. In a sense this was my Horeb, my Carmel or even my Meru. Fortunatelythe picture is real and unlike Gurdjieff I can relate how I got there and what happened. But as I wasthe first non-Asian ever to ascend that mountain, the unusual—which always happens to “the unworthy”is slow to penetrate and thus I have been unable to get anybody to follow. I am hoping thatPaul Reps will accept certain introductions and go so somebody can confirm. But the esoteric Buddhism,of reality and realities does not always conform with the written descriptions. The nearest isfound at the Koyasan Temple in Los Angeles, and that is somewhat mixed with other teachings.Now you can see the outlines of what happened from long association with Rabia Martin whogave me the keys early in life and they did not use other keys furnished by Inayat Khan and NyogenSenzaki. Only she did give the heritage of the European esotericisms so that they can be coalescedwith the wisdoms of the Orient.I shall have to move shortly and this will probably be for the better.Finally, I recovered the “Esoteric Masonry” of Inayat Khan which has to do with the renovationof earth, first. This is in accord with the now lost “Nabatean Culture” the Sabean esotericism whichonce dominated Rabia and which also influence the Jewish esotericism (as against mysticism.) Thenearest in the Bible is “the mystery of the seed-sowing” of Jesus Christ.The renovation of earth and the re-vivification of the human body no doubt go together andthis is the exoteric work and I have not even touched on that here.Will be glad to see you any time to mutual convenience.Cordially,Samuel L. LewisSufi Ahmed Murad