Diary 1963 - Murshid Sam's Living Stream

Diaries 1963August 7, 1963Dear Saladin:Nothing suffers so much as my diary in which I am supposed to record events for future history.The two letters from Pakistan made it almost mandatory to add two more correspondents tomy list, one in Los Angeles and the other in North England, people who are interested in Sufism. Myletter to the PoM was long and my typing rushes at an unabated rate.Yesterday I called on Connie, Fields Book Store and for the first time did a “Fudo” on one ofWatts’ students. I gave it to him. One person said, “I do not like your argument.” I turned to Connieand said, “How do I look?” “You never looked better in your life.” “That’s my argument.”Actually it is a sort of fana with old Nyogen and I should use it more. Tonight I may run intoDon Stevens and don’t know which way I shall act. But old Sensei’s statement that “You hear withyour eyes and see with your ears” works and is infallible and is in “Cosmic Language.” I hope Donreturns to me my commentary on “Cosmic Language” which was my best work. But I now have atremendous load of teachings for the future without even integrating all the Sufi work which mustbe done, University of Islamabad or not.A Sufi has strange experiences. Not only does he know what his brothers are doing to combatcommunism—“we” set the Russians against the Chinese and I can give details—“we” also pressuredthis ban-bomb. And when I was in an office the other day on food problems a wire came from Washingtonsummoning my contact, high level stuff that is “secret” only that no newspaper many wouldaccept it from a “little guy” and the serious man who received it would never give it to the press. Soeven with kashf sometimes one is way, way ahead. Actually twice I was entrusted by top men andnobody believed me. Don’t we have fun?A man in this house is ill and another and I wish they would take the Ohsawa diet. Connie andher friends all have good words for him as a person, but with all the long faces I have seen in theworld it is going to take more than corrective diet. Personally I believe that malnutrition outweighsstarvation anywhere from 10/1 to 100/1.I received a surprise letter from the White House in re this subject and so wrote. The top boysthink they influence me by rhetoric, wrong guy.Spent three hours with Charlton Kendal who has known me at least 30 years and sees little aging.I arranged my photos yesterday and if it were not for the styles, I don’t think anybody could tellthe older. It is only hair-graying.Several people want to see you and I only have given Connie a little more. She sells your booksand this is business, and she is now studying real Zen. The only social engagement I could have foryou are at book stores, because I find you can communicate spirituality by the $ and you can’t by thecocktail.At present spiritually and mentally all seems in order; materially very bad, hard pressed andmay have to move—it is a sword of Damocles rather than a fire. It is now clear about everythingPoM told me.Cordially,S.A.M.