Diary 1963 - Murshid Sam's Living Stream

Diaries 1963July 26This is my diary.There is no satisfaction in looking at what happened to “my enemies.” While Rabia never intendedto be classified as such there are certain outstanding facts which remain.1. She had a number of mureeds in the Orient, she established a name for herself as a Sufi, shenever told anybody about them and she stubbornly refused to write her autobiography. Now this isin demand and it is impossible. I am the only one alive who had inkling of her European esotericism;the records are destroyed, and the training would necessarily be displaced today.It is impossible to write objectively for Meher Baba has no particular standing, unless to beloathed gives one a standing. Rabia not only did not do even simple things Pir-o-Murshid requested,in the end she assented to the displacement of his teaching methods and then was stricken, whichwas only natural, after one breaks the guidance.2. Duplicating my own family affairs, now it is Terry Duce’s turn. He was always kind to me,but the aberrations of Ivy deprive him of any protection on the psychic and physical planes. TheBaba-ites will have a lot of explanation to do concerning these afflictions which they cannot explainaway.Terry has already been on the fringe or in the middle of two or three of my projects which areinter-related. If he had ever learned that Ivy stopped my “Palestine Plan” he would have given toher and it is very likely that he found something similar in another directions which had the sameeffect. You don’t have Murshid running around with grave illness close to them.About 1929 when there were missing papers—which I found—to no end now, Pir-o-Murshidappeared to me and said, “You have everything.” There is no use going into details or to deny thewords of Jesus; “The Kingdom of Heaven is within you.” I now have a complete real Integral Yogawhich will take two years to formulate and which has to be studied. It has within it the whole trainingof children following again Jesus Christ, “You find me in children up to the age of seven years,”Only this is not theology, has nothing to do with theology and is positively demonstrable at alllevels.There is a definite Christian note in it if one accepts—but they won’t accept it—James Fryseesoteric work with the body in four semantic divisions. It covers first every type of gymnastic endeavor,and then the arts—for the moment I only have touched dancing, drama and painting.Two more doors have opened for me which justifies my dropping some, or maybe in time, allprevious social activities. The first and on the face of it most important is the Nawab whose son Ihad previously “healed” now has a high government position in Sind and has given me an inquiry.Actually it is two inquiries, agricultural (scientific) and Sufism.The second has been at the Academy of Sciences. Last night I saw a TV program in which adress designer has affairs with all the women. I intend no affairs but when I look over to womenwho work voluntarily or for pay at the Academy I am struck by the total difference in approach freethose with whom I have been associated.