Diary 1963 - Murshid Sam's Living Stream

Diaries 1963July 2, 1963Beloved One of God:Yesterday the tasbihs arrived from Pakistan. The one set aside for you has not been called forand as there has been no news the conclusion is that you may be ill. I have been very careful not toextend healing practices although in the few cases tried there was been success. I am waiting for Piro-Murshid’spapers or for a copy of “Health” neither of which has been forthcoming. The reports atthe moment can be summarized briefly:American Scientist 100% success; Literati 0-100% successPakistan Scientist, 0.10% success; Literati 100% successThis position is untenable and now with at least three or four offers to go into “retreats” whereI could be freed from rent, do gardening week and my writing, this may be the last month under thepretest regime.My closest spiritual companion, Major Sadiq, has been hospitalized but it was illness or an accidentI do not knew. He talks much but writes little so I have to depend upon those whom he hasseen for news. He is one of the greatest moral and spiritualist leaders in the world. Beyond that Idare not go, excepting that if Saladin Reps were to stet me, I should be permitted to divulge “mysteries”and this will not be done through correspondence.Sunday night I took a lady to dinner, the one who gave me The Whirling Ecstasy. I saw wherethe trouble lay in my life and when I referred to this book she did a double entendre. One gets tiredof this. With scientists a book is a book, a tree is a tree and a star is a star; with others it is always“Who are you?” and “how do you know?”The events at the Academy of Sciences last week show the futility of trying to reach egocentricpeople of whomsoever and whatsoever, and the great ease of dealing with persons who are in thesciences. Here I found no difference between men and woman at all. The one class of women withwhom there is the greatest companionship and ease is that of those interested in the Orient and morespecially of the Near East. I lose two of them at once, both of whom have been victims of than terriblesource “only in America,” the European professor of Asiatics.So far as the scientists are concerned, there has been such harmony and communication, thatI must now make the few steps to get basic material for “How California Can Help Asia.” As to“The Lotus and the Universe,” there is now a plethora of material at a time more and more phoniesare being published on “Zen-this” and “Zen-that.” I do have the blessing of the Soto Zen leader inAmerican (Bishop Yamada) where communication also was exceedingly easy. But with all the movementsand followers I find practically nobody who has pierced the veil.True, I have contacted at least one wealthy person who placed some cards in my hands butthere is a limit to one’s abilities and capacities. The extreme response from Pakistan stands inmarked contrast to America. Rabia had more disciples in the Orient than there here and she nevertold about them. The threads have been picked up and to them I am now the successor in Sufism. Inasmuchas practically all the Pirs and Pir-o-Murshids abroad take this view it leaves me in a strange,paradoxical place. I am compelled to copy all of Murshid things I can, even if there have been publicationsbecause of the exceedingly high price for the published books aboard—and even then therehas to be guidance. Hazrat Inayat Khan started with six secretaries and I haven’t even one.