Diary 1963 - Murshid Sam's Living Stream

Diaries 1963-2I am about to get into judicial history here. A young protégé of mine is in trouble. I just had to fight,the usual thing. I told the party that never once in my whole history in San Francisco have I beenpermitted to intervene in behalf of those in trouble with law courts, with hospitals, with mentalinstitutions—I have never failed because somebody blocked my path—and then lost out of course.The last was the committing of my mother to a mental institution—done in my absence. I have determinedto appear as “amicus curiae” and am willing to have my fingers burned—they are alwaysburned by those close to me anyhow, and nothing was ever gained. Even Dr. Baker, who got veryclose to me, did not let me pass a certain point, and it ultimately was a factor in her own death.And while this is going on, I get letters of encouragement, or the aftermaths of incidentsabroad, when I wasn’t only permitted to participate, I was actually called in. They are not so importantor big, but there were no failures. And it is, to me, laughable and silly, that twice now the verytop American scientists have called me into their conferences. Asians do it anyhow, but this is notAsia. And I am nowhere in the sciences to where I am in the “occult.”It is time now to record some of my own “prophetic visions” on the war. This, strange to say,flopped with all the esotericists, but not with the Army Intelligence; how come? Now there is a bigfight going on, as if between the professors and the publishers, and I have jumped in full on the sideof the professors. It is too early for an answer, but I can smell it coming. And it is time to tell thesethings to close friends. After 12 years here, I got one friend to read one poem—it was hard and trying,but the reaction was what I feared, too much. If the party had read it when I wished, it couldhave been received without emotion. This has to do with Christ, healing and world events.I have seen the Christ healing, both in the empyrean and on earth, only that on earth was byothers—names, dates, events. I am willing to bet, too, that the despised AMA will take these reportsbefore the “good,” ”the “spiritual,” the “divine healer,” etc. The case of Oral Roberts is better knownin India and Pakistan than here—I am not sure of this man, but prefer his methods to those of “theorists”(but here I can be entirely wrong).Now Fred, at the present time, I do not see that the worst enemy is death, and certainly not themicrobe or virus. Reading Russell I have a complete picture. But alcoholism is standing in the way,and I find more people turning to drink, or even dope, than before, either running away from it allor experimenting. Paul Brunton distinctly lays it down that there are the ways of the eye, the heart,and the breath. One Yoga teacher here challenged me, and of course, I gave it to him. Christ said,“Freely give, freely receive.” What is going to happen now will be dramatic, but the laughter comes,and not as in the first lines of “The Merchant of Venice” either. It is the most serious laughter thereis. Someday I might tell you that it solves all sex problems, but today I think most people prefer theproblems. If it is not complex, it can’t be true???? End of diary for the moment.S.A.M.