Diary 1963 - Murshid Sam's Living Stream

Diaries 1963May 15, nightBeloved One of God:This is my diary entry and it has been impossible to keep it in good shape. When the poem“Saladin” arrived I thought it might mean good-luck and it certainly has meant pleasant ironies.After being snubbed for the Asia conference I took revenge.Chinese. I first either went or was led to the Chinese spiritual groups and am now on goodterms with all of them. I remain, too, one of the few Americans to have been initiated into Chineseesoteric Confucianism, or what I prefer to call, Seinism, the ancient wisdom of China. Then I tookpart in the Buddha celebration with Japanese, Chinese and Americans. The Buddhist movement isnow pretty much under control of friends and allies, and has no connection with what passes for“Buddhism” in press and radio, the universities being divided.Indonesians. On Mother’s Day I took out one Isabel Clark whom I have known for a long timeand who had just broken her engagement. We just drifted and had a wonderful time. She told me ofIndonesian friends here and I wanted to meet them. Meanwhile I have been calling on any dervishbrothers and take books from their library. Now I understand not only I shall be welcome but havebeen invited to attend an Indonesian wedding. If so, I shall go officially as a Sufi Dervish.Iranians. My Khalifa, Khawar, asked me to contact an important Iranian Sufi and has againwritten on the matter. Sunday we wandered into a Baha’i, meeting. I have gone all out for themagainst “Time” and we had a pretty good get together. Their leaders are Iranians and as they alsocome from Tehran evidently there is something in the winds. This completes my contacts withAsians from Japan to Turkey and Egypt both included, but still excludes me from all seminars onso-called “Asia.”Khawar. This is the most ironical of all. Helping her she was boosted as being Public Philosophy#1 and now she reports she was acclaimed as Public Psychologist #1, given long publicity inPakistan (she sent me extensive clippings) and has been invited to Iran, too.Now the people who do not realize or accept that it is the mureeds who make the Murshidcannot realize what this means to my face and career abroad. For, every virtue and success of hers isascribed to my Baraka and not to her personal wisdom.On top of that she has received another proposal, this time from Iqbal’s son. We had discussedthis before and I told her I could not be disinterested because such a marriage would immediatelypush my poetry forward; for letters from him would help me greatly toward publications. Since mygod-son, Anwar has also proposed, this puts me in a strange position for while I have given him ablessing I have given them both suitable Wazifas which will tell their hearts and lead them aright.Saladin has now been read by the Egyptians and I was most warmly welcomed. They are nowbelieving the spiritual source of my inspirations and are accepting my position in tasawwuf. Thiswill be reported also to Mawlawi, but politically I have been very careful with him.