Diary 1963 - Murshid Sam's Living Stream

Diaries 1963-2It was very significant that when Donna showed me her chart, the role of events is evident andmy interpretations were both bolstered by what Gavin had told her and from what I see in it. Butthe chart has limitation in that it only measures the strictly karmic forces and not much the universeof the genius-side of man (Uranian) and nothing at all of the heart side, thought the indicators arethere.One thing I learned from Dr. Baker is that patterns remain until we break them and often theyare so big and strong we cannot. Gavin did explain in the basic pattern of Donna’s psyche but thestrong urges of sex on one hand and of the heart on another make us difficult and even unnecessaryto follow our own “blue-prints.” Her trip to Puerto Rico brought out little excepting more hardshipand pain and an almost realization on that she may have to follow a new pattern. It also shows inher chart why she is drawn to Grace and to certain people whom I do not name. I only hope that ifshe has romance again ether the man’s chart will be drawn up or that the heart rather than the egoor psyche will determine the next step. This is not easy when one has children.I expect to see her home here which is now rented. She is going to move with the children intoa barn on her property and I hope to be helping her in this after this letter is completed—it may beleft open. Donna does seem satisfied to be here and the children love it. On the whole I would sayshe fit in very well with the folks who come to the Music Box where I am staying.I told both Grace and Donna a little of what I know of Yvonne’s plans and they both like it andfeel there is a need for something of that sort. I am observing a lot of the details of observation soI can report more fully when I return—the arrangements of the titles, the décor, the close relationswith the clientele and a lot of other things.It was fortunate I booked ahead of time for within four hours after I arrived all rooms weretaken up; Easter has been booked so ahead and after that a cinema company is coming here whichwill be a great attraction all around. Indeed the question is finding help—cooks, waiters, etc. for evenwith everybody pitching in, it is not enough and there is not much help available. This is an almostisolate community excepting slightly to the worth, to Fort Bragg.Donna has a huge car, like a van and I’ll know more about it later, no doubt. The children weretoo tired. She has Pogo still but I did not check about the other dogs.I am only hoping to put a touch of courage. I see our society poised between firm pessimismand superficial optimism while I am trying to bring a firm optimism based on the existence of spiritualvalues—the values themselves and not any talk about them. The glamour of Alan Watts andothers has been followed by the very questionable antics of dramatists posing as spiritual leaders,accepted and then behaving as Pied Pipers. This will continue and it is only when we have the victimswe are spooked, but it is usual we either become pessimistic or accept another Pied Piper. Thisis due to the failure of the common religion which even I shudder to consider and at least sociallyprefer the Alans or the Pied Pipers. But that does not help Donna or the others. If I can bring out“The Kingdom of Heaven is Within” I believe this will be wonderful. And here I go almost like a“father” to Grace’s mother and there may more in it than meets the eyes or the I.