Diary 1963 - Murshid Sam's Living Stream

Diaries 1963-2Your report to me shows that none of them believe that God Is the Only Being. They do notbelieve that “In God we live and breathe and have our being.” They cannot conceive that we areparts of each other as St. Paul said. In other words, what makes a Sufi? It is not a title that you canhand down. The African dervishes do not call themselves Sufis, but agree with Rabia, “I shall be aSufi, God willing.” And unless they see that Allah is willing, they do not use that appellation. Myuse of the term is by initiation and not ceremony.In 1925 I had the first initiation of Khidr and when I was to meet the Pir of Dewwal Shereef Iknew it would be a fight to the death. But I did not know whose death. I melted entirely away in hispresence. Today I visited Gavin Arthur who is involved in some ESP research. I laugh. Do you thinkI wait for a letter from either of my Pirs in order to do anything? It is different from kashf or intuitionbut it works with this faculty.Now the stream of direction from the Pir of Dewwal Shereef and from Pir-o-Murshid InayatKhan are the same. This Pir not only repeated the same instructions, sometimes he even used thesame words, as if he himself were merged in Inayat Khan. This is something the family does not,cannot, and will not comprehend. I have been willing, for the sake of love and harmony and beautyto work with them or anybody. Pir-o-Murshid did not make me an esoteric leader, but an exotericleader, and “leader is he who is leader of himself.”In the last few days I have gotten complete, satisfactory answers from Princeton and Pitt. Notonly that when I visited Berkeley, my suggestion on a world problem was accepted and I know myother suggestions are going through. All signs point to it. I am not worried over the private opinionsof people who have not seen the face of God, or Love. The subject with Princeton is Sufism itself, andwith Pitt, world harmony and peace. And all my suggestions have been accepted, with thanks, bypeople who are moving in large arenas.I was away when the Bridey Murphy stuff became public. I met Bernstein, and liked him, buthe has the Shangri-la dream. Not so his closest friend, who asked for Bayat and received it. But itwas on condition that he give me no gift of any sort and no thanks under any conditions. Fatehasays, “All praise is to Allah” and Saum says, “Praise be to Thee.” Instead of gaining financially bymureeds, I have exhausted my resources, and excepting one wealthy lady in Cleveland, gotten nothingbut a little hospitality. I have received much more from friends.I have already outlined my future at the University of California, and today received my copyof “The Lesser Upanishads” of which there are few copies in this country. This, plus the Japanesematerial which has come my way…. I would not change if I could. I can’t. If you think there hasbeen any break in ties between Pir-o-Murshid and myself it came just once, and that was my doing,when I could not believe what he was trying to tell me. I dare not interfere with transmission. And ifI don’t get any answers from Europe, so be it, but whom do you think loses?