Diary 1963 - Murshid Sam's Living Stream

Diaries 1963October 5September has been another strenuous month. After Saladin wanted me to do a lot of things heturned on me and accused me of breaking up meetings. Having only spoken “in opposition” at twoBuddhist meetings this was a surprise but I know who told him. On the first occasion there was anovation. On the second received back from Dr. Rahul in New Delhi, “I congratulate you.”Now Vilayat Khan has assented to my using Gathas but as I have these don’t know what to doexcepting to feel that I might give Bayats in his name in America. There is no desire to compete.”Had to come to a climax over these:a. The rejection of the splendid plans of Dr. Milton Fireman regarding soils, crops and foreignaid.b. The visit of Under Secretary Ball to Pakistan to find out what one knew already.c. Letter from Khawar suggesting I write my autobiography.d. Continued complex in Vietnam.Heard James Wagner and find myself in substantial agreement. Hal Priebe has also appointedme as legate here. Have met two military men who are objective. Contacted ICA man who wants myreports and may act as intermediary. This keeps me busy on manuscript. Occasional looking intofood problem, mostly busy buying books and attending Schaeffer School. My drawings in entomologyand horticulture considered satisfactory but what I am getting the “feeling.”Heard lecture on new brush school of Japan and this is helping toward a universal esthetic.Don’t know how I can carry this all.The deaths of Swamis Ramdas and Sivananada celebrated by reading of power.Attending Too Lun as often as possible. He has the five-school approach of Buddhism and stilluses meditation. Love Suzuki but something drawing me toward the Chinese. Saladin, Lottie, Christineand Mrs. Digman—in other words, my oldest and best friends, all drawn to the same orbit.Met one Mohammed Qureshi whom I like very much and who says he will translate my Urduthings. His father has moved to within a furlong or so of Khawar on Multan Road, Lahore. We shallsee. Disturbed by reports from Pakistan. The politics makes the country go pro-Chinese and the economicspro-American but you can’t get objectivity here—yet!Lecture by Dr. Johnson of UC Asian affairs objective and excellent. Small attentive audience—any resemblance to press reports ain’t. Commies planning to take over Mme. Nhu demonstration,don’t like. Will probably phone Nimmy and Iru for advice. Gave Kwok one warning paper.