Diary 1963 - Murshid Sam's Living Stream

Diaries 1963-4I got in hot water during the war because of certain statements I made and on the requests ofGII (Intelligence) destroyed (I thought) all my papers. The Colonel Lansdale, the Chief CIA representativein Vietnam was a witness to it. So even my closest associates hardly know me.I had a plan for Palestine which the confidante who was very influential blocked and whenlater I met the Swedish an Indian UN top officials they independently told me it was the most sensiblething they ever heard of. But I withdraw from that and also from the Kashmir complex anddevote myself to food problems. But I know Asian histories. In 1961 on Thanksgiving Day, I dinedwith the American colony in Lahore—all the teachers, experts, officials were there and I was the onlyone who knows the history of the region.It is only now that I have been asked to place everything into channels which the people interviewingme will arrange. We spend a million dollars a day in Vietnam alone; we have been rebuffedin an allied country, Pakistan; we keep on losing whatever prestige we have (nothing here to do withour Negro question) and an American cannot warn his country no matter what? or can he?With foreign nations ready to subsidize me and neither of them on good terms now with theUnited States something radical had to be done and has been. Now it is up to me.I have not even put in a phone yet. I have my chance. It looks like bragging above. In my lastpublic debate attended where three professors argued with each other, after I got on to the floor theystopped quarreling, one surrendered, one became my friend and the third has a top Washingtonappointment. And I have not yet reported to Mrs. Grady above, although on account of the Asian affairsI do report to Asia Foundation, the one spot in San Francisco where I may talk—or maybe otherdoors will be opened—I shall know before the end of the month.I phoned John Rockwell and sent him a copy of letter to Senator Engle. Both Senators havebeen cooperative but the two Congressmen here are almost impossible. And do you know whostarted me off? The own retired ex-Mayor of Los Angeles Norris Poulson! I have been around.My love, despite all this nonsense,S. A. M. (as I am getting to be known all over!)