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Letters of Anton Chekhov (Tchekhov) - Penn State University

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<strong>Letters</strong> <strong>of</strong> <strong>Anton</strong> <strong>Chekhov</strong> to His Family and Friends with biographical sketchTO A. S. SUVORIN.MELIHOVO, October 22, 1896.In your last letter (<strong>of</strong> October 18) you three times call me womanish,and say that I was in a funk. Why this libel? After the performanceI had supper at Romanov’s. On my word <strong>of</strong> honour. Then Iwent to bed, slept soundly, and next day went home without utteringa sound <strong>of</strong> complaint. If I had been in a funk I should have runfrom editor to editor and actor to actor, should have nervously entreatedthem to be considerate, should nervously have inserted uselesscorrections and should have spent two or three weeks in Petersburgfussing over my “Seagull,” in excitement, in a cold perspiration,in lamentation …. When you were with me the night after theperformance you told me yourself that it would be the best thingfor me to go away; and next morning I got a letter from you to saygood-bye. How did I show funk? I acted as coldly and reasonably asa man who has made an <strong>of</strong>fer, received a refusal, and has nothingleft but to go. Yes, my vanity was stung, but you know it was not abolt from the blue; I was expecting a failure, and was prepared forit, as I warned you with perfect sincerity beforehand.When I got home I took a dose <strong>of</strong> castor oil, and had a cold bath,and now I am ready to write another play. I no longer feel exhaustedand irritable, and am not afraid that Davydov and Jean will come tome and talk about the play. I agree with your corrections, and athousand thanks for them. Only please don’t regret that you werenot at the rehearsals. You know there was in reality only one rehearsal,at which one could make out nothing. One could not seethe play at all through the loathsome acting.I have got a telegram from Potapenko—“A colossal success.” Ihave had a letter from Mlle. Veselitsky (Mikulitch) whom I don’tknow. She expresses her sympathy in a tone as if one <strong>of</strong> my familywere dead. It’s really quite inappropriate; that’s all nonsense, though.My sister is delighted with you and Anna Ivanovna, and I aminexpressibly glad <strong>of</strong> it, for I love your family like my own. Shehastened home from Petersburg, possibly imagining that I wouldhang myself ….342

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