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<strong>Dateline</strong><br />
BENEFITS WESTERN<br />
NEW YORK PERINATAL<br />
BEREAVEMENT NETWORK<br />
Walk to Remember<br />
Raises $13,000<br />
More than 600 individuals and families<br />
gathered for this year’s Walk to Remember.<br />
We couldn’t have asked for a more<br />
beautiful day to memorialize our babies<br />
lost to miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy,<br />
stillbirth, or early infant death. Some<br />
would say our sunny warm weather<br />
was a result of “Mother Nature” but we<br />
know better: it was all of our angels<br />
making sure the day was perfect. Over<br />
600 family members and friends walked<br />
to pay tribute to our babies.<br />
We would like to thank the<br />
dedication of several walk committee<br />
members whose time, talent and<br />
dedication made this day possible:<br />
Lisa & Peter Jerebko, Phil, Thomas<br />
& Mandy Scott, Mark Kim, Lisa Roy,<br />
Lucy Smith, Lisa Wolff, Michelle<br />
Morgan, Nina Leskiw, Lisa Capage,<br />
Lesley Jordans, Martha Rothkopf,<br />
Frank Enders, Karen Schneider,<br />
Fran & Tom Kane, Sarah Noonan,<br />
Debi Zmuda (and Geri!), Vicky M,<br />
Margaret Depowski, Jan Walkden<br />
and Sara Montz. We also would like<br />
to send a warm thank you for our<br />
“day of ” volunteers and corporate<br />
sponsors. Our walk brought in over<br />
$13,000 that will benefit the programs<br />
of the WNYPBN.<br />
From the bottom of our hearts, we<br />
thank you!<br />
Sincerely,<br />
Christine Scott & Dawn Both-Kim,<br />
Co-chairs<br />
The following is a letter we received from a parent of one of<br />
Caring Hearts Perinatal patients. The Caring Hearts Perinatal<br />
Program is offered to expectant parents whose baby is diagnosed<br />
with a life-threatening condition before birth. The unique service is a<br />
program of The Center for <strong>Hospice</strong> & Palliative Care and is supported<br />
through a grant from The Children’s Guild.<br />
Grief can be a heavy burden that leadens every movement, every thought and<br />
every decision. However, grief is also a lens. It clarifies what is most important in<br />
life, magnifies the beauty of someone now lost and sharpens our sense of what has<br />
been found.<br />
When people ask about my daughter my responses most often confuse them.<br />
They are horrified by the story but perplexed by how calmly I tell the details, how I<br />
could cherish such moments. On May 18th of this year at 11:07 pm my first child<br />
was born, a daughter named Isabel. I held her, kissed her, dressed her and told her<br />
I loved her. At 1:05 am she died in the cradle of my arms. I was 34 weeks into my<br />
pregnancy but I knew that my baby was going to die at my 17-week appointment<br />
when she was diagnosed with a congenital kidney condition that was “incompatible<br />
with life.”<br />
Some said that I wasn’t given a choice. However, I did make a choice. I made it<br />
over and over for fifteen weeks. There was never a doubt that I would carry Isabel<br />
for as long as I could. She was safe within me; life outside was dangerous. She was<br />
still our dream come true for we had struggled to conceive her. The choice I could<br />
make was how I was going to carry her. Supported by the counselors of the Caring<br />
Hearts Perinatal <strong>Hospice</strong> program, we made the choice to carry her without dread<br />
in our hearts. We chose to open ourselves to loving her completely and cherishing<br />
every squirm, not knowing which one would be her last. We chose to live as fully as<br />
we could and leave most of the hard work of grief for later. There was a kernel of<br />
hope that the doctors were wrong but we prepared ourselves for losing her at the<br />
same time.<br />
We created a birth plan detailing our wishes for the day of her delivery and the<br />
hospital was notified in advance. Plans were made with the funeral director.<br />
Decisions were made regarding further testing. At the same time, we continued to<br />
work, meet with friends, pay the bills, grocery shop….all the ordinary tasks of life<br />
during an extraordinary time. We were keenly aware that this was the only time we<br />
would have with our daughter. We counted each moment, not as winding down to<br />
a terrible ending, but counting each moment as a memory to hold onto forever.<br />
The night of her birth was the most joyful moment of our lives for we finally had<br />
a chance to hold our daughter and share her with our families. Two hours seemed<br />
an eternity, a luxury of time we did not dare hope for. The curtain of grief was<br />
drawn when we were told she had passed. At the same time we clearly saw how<br />
much we had lost and how much we had gained in the past few months.<br />
To talk about Isabel is to tell a story of seeming paradoxes. Our experience<br />
strengthened and humbled us. Our lives were shattered and yet made whole. There<br />
is a peaceful center in the eye of grief. It’s only by going through the most turbulent<br />
part of the storm that one can find that place though.<br />
On October 12th I will join others in A Walk to Remember in honor of<br />
the 850,000 babies who die each year from miscarriage, stillbirth or early infant<br />
death. We walk in grief but we are not broken by it. We walk, transformed by<br />
our losses, but all is not lost.<br />
Andrea<br />
Mother of Caring Hearts Perinatal patient