Freud_Burlingham_1943_War_and_Children_k_text

months thi9 was the period I was in the Sanatorium.I was up all day and had been for quite a whileand I was feeling very well so I decided to comeback to London and let some one in m yown familytake care of John, and I would finish my treatmentin a Sanatorium down here, but I was disappointedwhen I got home I found my sisters hadall got government jobs and could not leave them, soI said unless I found somebody suitable I wouldnever leave him again and it was during this time Ihad him that I noticed he was not the happycarefree little boy that I had left, he had alteredcompletely, seemed to be frightened of every littlething he did, he would say "Can I do this, can Ido that", he would never do anything of his ownfree will for fear it was wrong, I would say "yes"to everything he wanted just to get him backto his old ways, and it made me realise how verymuch he must have been kept down ... I thengot the chance to come to this Sanatorium andas we know some one in the country we thoughtit would be a good idea to ask her if she wouldlike to have John, thinking he would have a goodhome and the freedom of the fields to play in, sheseemed to jump at the idea of having him and sheasked me to pay her 15/— a week, but I was sopleased to think that she was going to have him thatI asked her to accept 18— as the cost of living wasso dear and would not be much money in for herlabour, this she accepted, so I came away to settledown and get better, thinking that little John wasnow settled and I would not have the same worryas Ihad before of him being tied down and watchedabout, but she was very particular, in the home, andI guessed that she turned out to be the same as the146