Rumbling on performativity_Frits Simon
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c<strong>on</strong>nected with an engineering professi<strong>on</strong>al culture in which is assumed that equivocality<br />
is to be excluded.<br />
My greatest decepti<strong>on</strong> was that I could not get all the members of staff in a development-oriented<br />
mode regarding educati<strong>on</strong>al philosophy or technology. I stumbled up<strong>on</strong><br />
their firmly anchored educati<strong>on</strong>al and organizati<strong>on</strong>al default assumpti<strong>on</strong>s. Only a<br />
minority of the colleagues in some departments were in for educati<strong>on</strong>al or organizati<strong>on</strong>al<br />
innovati<strong>on</strong> despite the fact that there was a lot of space to develop their own<br />
ideas. Partially colleagues explained their own unwillingness with the generally felt<br />
disqualificati<strong>on</strong> of the educati<strong>on</strong>al jobs in the Netherlands. Partially they were <strong>on</strong>ly<br />
focused <strong>on</strong> their traditi<strong>on</strong>al expertise and did not want to be bothered by other developments.<br />
And they experienced a high workload.<br />
I relived <strong>on</strong>e of my first experiences in Higher Educati<strong>on</strong> namely that professi<strong>on</strong>al<br />
aut<strong>on</strong>omy had prolapsed into extreme subjectivity. Some colleagues of this faculty<br />
saw me as a representative of the board who had to shake up things and to cut their<br />
budgets. Also as some<strong>on</strong>e who had no qualificati<strong>on</strong> <strong>on</strong> their field of expertise and<br />
therefore no authority to solve their problems. Was I a prototype of a manager who<br />
had lost c<strong>on</strong>tact with the educati<strong>on</strong>al job at hand? On the other hand questi<strong>on</strong>s arose<br />
about the way they were able to sustain their str<strong>on</strong>g c<strong>on</strong>victi<strong>on</strong>s and how some of<br />
them were able to give me a feeling of being excluded.<br />
Tensi<strong>on</strong>s with the board turned up when I wanted to introduce a new policy of the<br />
UAS in an adapted way for my faculty. Being held resp<strong>on</strong>sible for my faculty I wanted<br />
to change things with my colleagues in a way which was feasible. Of course, I was<br />
stimulated by my experiences in the former faculty in which good cooperati<strong>on</strong> and<br />
taking time delivered str<strong>on</strong>g results. In the eyes of the board I was a bit elusive, not to<br />
fix to exact results and sometimes they doubted my loyalty.<br />
3.5 Defaults-genesis part IV: director strategic programme<br />
In the middle of 2007 I decided not to aim for a new appointment as dean/managing<br />
director of this faculty. Irrespective of my disappointments, I was fed up with all the<br />
planning and c<strong>on</strong>trol thinking in which plans had become very important. In my experience<br />
facades were created instead of talking about things which really matter.<br />
Moreover, I got tired with the amount of changes; a colleague-dean of mine even<br />
spoke of innovati<strong>on</strong>-terror. I also wanted to get away from a job with quite some<br />
ritualistic duties.<br />
I felt that I was not the same pers<strong>on</strong> as before. In my own and in the experience of my<br />
colleagues I had become a Scrooge McDuck. Mainly busy with m<strong>on</strong>ey, results and<br />
evaluati<strong>on</strong>s instead of stimulating a rich working envir<strong>on</strong>ment and managing people.<br />
The felt ambivalence about being a manager which accompanied me at the start of<br />
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