Rumbling on performativity_Frits Simon
Rumbling on performativity_Frits Simon
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y c<strong>on</strong>necting c<strong>on</strong>cepts of the cognitive sciences with c<strong>on</strong>cepts about epistemological<br />
order, micro-power, communicati<strong>on</strong> and interacti<strong>on</strong>, by using Elias (1969), Foucault<br />
(1966), Minsky (1986) and Shotter (1993).<br />
3.4 Defaults-genesis part III: becoming and being a<br />
manager<br />
In 1998 I was urged to apply for the positi<strong>on</strong> of head of the department of social work.<br />
“Urged” is the right word because I was very ambivalent about becoming a manager.<br />
My hesitati<strong>on</strong>s were multiple.<br />
Hesitati<strong>on</strong>s and ambivalence<br />
First of all, I almost felt no affiliati<strong>on</strong> with management. I had experienced some of my<br />
managers as hesitating in their decisi<strong>on</strong>s, unclear in their argumentati<strong>on</strong>, ambiguous<br />
in their positi<strong>on</strong> and not showing inspiring leadership. To their advantage I should<br />
state that they had to manage in situati<strong>on</strong>s in which a lot of change was brought<br />
about in the Dutch Higher Educati<strong>on</strong> (textbox 1 in 1.1). Becoming a manager would<br />
mean that I would become a member of a largely unappreciated group in my organizati<strong>on</strong>.<br />
A sec<strong>on</strong>d hesitati<strong>on</strong> was that becoming a manager would end my PhD-project. This<br />
project enriched my knowledge. At the same time it lacked focus and was a never<br />
ending story. Applying could be an excuse to stop it. I also found no inspirati<strong>on</strong> in<br />
lecturing anymore, partly caused by myself. I had developed a didactic way of working<br />
in which students were very much engaged but I had made myself more or less redundant<br />
as a lecturer.<br />
A third hesitati<strong>on</strong> was that I had ample experience in managing teams. Although<br />
colleagues stated that they were happy with me as a project manager, I knew that<br />
being critical about management, does not imply that I would be a better manager. In<br />
my free time I had some experience as the President of the Board of a primary school<br />
and a member of the board of a university of life, but more or less managing in a board<br />
the policy of a manager is not the same as managing a team or a department.<br />
A fourth hesitati<strong>on</strong> had to do with the philosophy I lectured about. I was influenced by<br />
neo-Marxist thinkers like Habermas (born 1925) and heavily influenced by reading<br />
Foucault, Sloterdijk and Rorty (1931 – 2007). They write about the power of language<br />
and communicati<strong>on</strong>, the power of inequality or difference, and about the pervert<br />
character of our modern society. I asked myself if I should become part of perverting<br />
the educati<strong>on</strong> system. I remember having written an unpublished column with in the<br />
headline the questi<strong>on</strong> whether the dream of modularisati<strong>on</strong> would bring forth m<strong>on</strong>sters<br />
(paraphrasing the title of a painting of the Spanish painter Francisco Goya, which<br />
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