Rumbling on performativity_Frits Simon

within the UAS. This search was fuelled by my own research with regard to potentially
appointing me as a corporate jester within the UAS, by an announced governmental
policy regarding the need of constructive dissent within UAS’s and by some evolving
thoughts by the members of the Board about stimulating resilience or resistance to
prevent derailments within the UAS.
These narratives mirror my experiences, but not in a naive and novel-like way. As
mentioned the narratives have evolved throughout a rather rigorous analytical and
reflexive process, in which I participated for 4 years. For the way of working within
this complex responsive process-approach I will take responsibility in connection with
longstanding bodies of thought in which this approach is embedded, and with regard
to scientificality and ethical matters (chapter 2). Of course questions are to be answered
regarding relevance and internal and external validity of the research. Of course
issues are to be dealt with regarding privacy and discretion. In chapter 2 I will also
come back to why insider research was indicated to do research.
As mentioned a complex responsive process-approach is a reflexive approach of doing
research. Regarding this reflexive approach the researcher is held to take responsibility
for the many interpretations and choices he makes regarding his research. By doing
that it becomes possible to keep up with the learning process of the researcher
(Flyvbjerg, 2001). In general qualitative researchers acknowledge that their texts
cannot be separated from the author, from how it is received by readers and what
impact they have on the involved of the research (Creswell, 2007). Therefore an exploration
of my taken for granted assumptions, which undeniable influenced the ‘personal’
research within my own practice from the onset, is compulsory. In chapter 3 I
present a narrative in which I reconstructed the way I came to think and feel about
different topics. Looking back at my socialisation, my education and my working
experiences I come to elaborate on how I experience my work, what I think are important
problems and how I think, at the moment of writing the narrative, of ways to
solve them. Once again this narrative will clarify that I entered my research project
with quite a lot of varied ideas about what to do with policy within a UAS. I learned, I
interpreted and reconstructed my experiences, and a perspective on what I was doing
in the context of my work evolved.
In the final chapter 7 conclusions, results and the contribution of my research to the
field of OMS will be discussed. A felt need to interrupt - to rumble on! - somehow the
rumbling on performativity expresses the outcomes of my research. In this final chapter
I will reflect upon the research undertaken and how interruption and performativity
have come to be main subjects of my thesis. To take time for interruption has a
double connotation. It indicates the felt necessity for some sort of interruption of our
business as usual. ‘Time for’ also indicates the need to take some time to rumble on
performativity.
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