Rumbling on performativity_Frits Simon
Rumbling on performativity_Frits Simon
Rumbling on performativity_Frits Simon
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Especially Fi<strong>on</strong>a felt she would be helped with clear definiti<strong>on</strong>s. Moreover, the Secretary<br />
of State more or less demanded that the performance agreements were to be<br />
widely discussed with employees and students.<br />
In Fi<strong>on</strong>a’s and my proposal were some ideas about involving quite some managers,<br />
associate professors, and students in the establishment of the agreements. But given<br />
the c<strong>on</strong>cerns about clear definiti<strong>on</strong>s organizati<strong>on</strong>-wide involvement disappeared to be<br />
an issue. Later <strong>on</strong> the disappearance of this issue was c<strong>on</strong>verted by me into an argument<br />
of strength, of no need in involving a lot of people.<br />
In between the 17th and 29th I became overflowed with informati<strong>on</strong>: documents<br />
about former preparati<strong>on</strong>s, informati<strong>on</strong> from other UAS’s and discussi<strong>on</strong>s with different<br />
people about what was at stake. I felt c<strong>on</strong>fused because of a lack of and lag in<br />
informati<strong>on</strong>, an unclear positi<strong>on</strong>, an intense cooperati<strong>on</strong> with a colleague I never<br />
worked with before and a deadline <strong>on</strong> my mind. In my experience Fi<strong>on</strong>a Cornips was<br />
very busy with a lot of other things, so often we had scarcely time for discussi<strong>on</strong>. She<br />
felt very resp<strong>on</strong>sible, but had to manage in between of other obligati<strong>on</strong>s. Moreover,<br />
more colleagues were to be c<strong>on</strong>sulted, because they managed specific dossiers. Given<br />
my c<strong>on</strong>fusi<strong>on</strong> and her busyness a dedicated management of the process remained<br />
unclear for some time. I felt a bit of an outsider: not an expert <strong>on</strong> certain matters and<br />
because working with Fi<strong>on</strong>a Cornips who was already busy with the subject for a l<strong>on</strong>g<br />
time. Also to be suddenly c<strong>on</strong>fr<strong>on</strong>ted with the document of Paul Broersen did not help<br />
me to feel inside. At the same time I was c<strong>on</strong>fident that things would turn out all right.<br />
Of course I was not totally unfamiliar with a lot of topics and knew most of the involved<br />
colleagues. Moreover, I knew that I am able to sort things out in a short time<br />
and to involve other colleagues. According to Ella Rietkerk I was the <strong>on</strong>ly <strong>on</strong>e who did<br />
not panic. For me it felt like wearing a sec<strong>on</strong>d-hand garment which fits another body,<br />
but in time it becomes your own.<br />
March: spring coming?<br />
Taking the resp<strong>on</strong>sibility of managers of the process Fi<strong>on</strong>a and I started assembling<br />
informati<strong>on</strong> about the relevant issues, tried to get developed unambiguous data,<br />
interpretati<strong>on</strong>s and definiti<strong>on</strong>s of these issues. In different groups we also toyed with<br />
target values to get an idea of what the implicati<strong>on</strong>s could be. “Imperturbably remaining<br />
ourselves” helped to keep <strong>on</strong> staying self-c<strong>on</strong>fident. It appeared that to deliver<br />
necessary data was quite complicated given our data bases. Moreover, the definiti<strong>on</strong>s<br />
of some issues were unclear and our standing policy was not always easy to find out.<br />
Informati<strong>on</strong> appeared to be spread out through the organizati<strong>on</strong> with often different<br />
people being resp<strong>on</strong>sible for keeping up the informati<strong>on</strong>. Fi<strong>on</strong>a and the members of<br />
the board were quite annoyed by some of the colleagues, being c<strong>on</strong>fr<strong>on</strong>ted with the<br />
fact that they were not in c<strong>on</strong>trol. For me it felt as an inc<strong>on</strong>venience, a bit of trial and<br />
error with many opti<strong>on</strong>s. I had not expected otherwise because to my experience in<br />
the different positi<strong>on</strong>s I had, there is always a difference between what you think to<br />
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