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CHAPTER VII 52
to wash our heads. The tears came into your eyes and you said that she did not understand mythology. 'Silly
boy,' your mother exclaimed, 'you'll see how sweet your hair will smell afterwards.' I laughed, but you were
offended and would not talk with me, and for the rest of the day appeared so serious that then I wanted to cry.
On our way back to the town through the hot sun, I picked some sage leaves that grew beside the path and
gave them to you to put in your hat so that you might not get a headache. You smiled and caught my hand,
and we made up."
Ibarra smiled with happiness as he opened his pocketbook and took from it a piece of paper in which were
wrapped some dry, blackened leaves which gave off a sweet odor. "Your sage leaves," he said, in answer to
her inquiring look. "This is all that you have ever given me."
She in turn snatched from her bosom a little pouch of white satin. "You must not touch this," she said, tapping
the palm of his hand lightly. "It's a letter of farewell."
"The one I wrote to you before leaving?"
"Have you ever written me any other, sir?"
"And what did I say to you then?"
"Many fibs, excuses of a delinquent debtor," she answered smilingly, thus giving him to understand how
sweet to her those fibs were. "Be quiet now and I'll read it to you. I'll leave out your fine phrases in order not
to make a martyr of you."
Raising the paper to the height of her eyes so that the youth might not see her face, she began: "'My'--but I'll
not read what follows that because it's not true."
Her eyes ran along some lines.
"'My father wishes me to go away, in spite of all my pleadings. 'You are a man now,' he told me, 'and you
must think about your future and about your duties. You must learn the science of life, a thing which your
fatherland cannot teach you, so that you may some day be useful to it. If you remain here in my shadow, in
this environment of business affairs, you will not learn to look far ahead. The day in which you lose me you
will find yourself like the plant of which our poet Baltazar tells: grown in the water, its leaves wither at the
least scarcity of moisture and a moment's heat dries it up. Don't you understand? You are almost a young man,
and yet you weep!' These reproaches hurt me and I confessed that I loved you. My father reflected for a time
in silence and then, placing his hand on my shoulder, said in a trembling voice, 'Do you think that you alone
know how to love, that your father does not love you, and that he will not feel the separation from you? It is
only a short time since we lost your mother, and I must journey on alone toward old age, toward the very time
of life when I would seek help and comfort from your youth, yet I accept my loneliness, hardly knowing
whether I shall ever see you again. But you must think of other and greater things; the future lies open before
you, while for me it is already passing behind; your love is just awakening, while mine is dying; fire burns in
your blood, while the chill is creeping into mine. Yet you weep and cannot sacrifice the present for the future,
useful as it may be alike to yourself and to your country.' My father's eyes filled with tears and I fell upon my
knees at his feet, I embraced him, I begged his forgiveness, and I assured him that I was ready to set out--'"
Ibarra's growing agitation caused her to suspend the reading, for he had grown pale and was pacing back and
forth.
"What's the matter? What is troubling you?" she asked him.
"You have almost made me forget that I have my duties, that I must leave at once for the town. Tomorrow is