This Side of the Grave (#5 Night Huntress)
This Side of the Grave (#5 Night Huntress)
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egimented, impeccable grooming habits.<br />
“Don loves you, too,” I whispered.<br />
Then I walked away, leaving Tate to go into my uncle’s room.<br />
Chapter Thirty-one<br />
I knew how critical Don’s condition was. Understood that, if not for my mo<strong>the</strong>r’s intervention earlier, he’d already be dead now. But somehow, I<br />
hadn’t truly accepted that he was dying until I walked into his room and <strong>the</strong> final shreds <strong>of</strong> my denial were ripped away from me.<br />
It wasn’t <strong>the</strong> bluish paleness <strong>of</strong> Don’s features as he lay, eyes closed, on <strong>the</strong> bed. Not <strong>the</strong> hospital gown he’d previously refused to wear, <strong>the</strong><br />
EKG machine that showed his shockingly low blood pressure, or <strong>the</strong> heavy scent <strong>of</strong> what I now knew was cancer. It wasn’t even his erratic<br />
heartbeats that drove home <strong>the</strong> reality that this would be <strong>the</strong> last time I would ever see my uncle. No, it was <strong>the</strong> rolling tray pushed into <strong>the</strong> corner <strong>of</strong><br />
<strong>the</strong> room—naked <strong>of</strong> a phone, laptop, or any files—that tore through my heart with all <strong>the</strong> pain <strong>of</strong> a thousand silver blades.<br />
You just talked to him a few days ago! a voice screamed inside me. How could it come to this so fast?<br />
I shoved back <strong>the</strong> sob that threatened to break free and went over to his bedside, very s<strong>of</strong>tly running my hand over his arm. I was afraid to disturb<br />
him by letting him know I was here, and afraid not to. He was hooked up to an EKG, but aside from <strong>the</strong> tubes in his nose, he brea<strong>the</strong>d on his own in<br />
small, shallow puffs that didn’t give him enough oxygen, judging from his pallor.<br />
I sat <strong>the</strong>re in silence for half an hour, watching him, thinking back to <strong>the</strong> first time I met Don, all <strong>the</strong> way to <strong>the</strong> last time I saw him before now. We<br />
had both good and bad history between us, but <strong>the</strong> mistakes <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> past faded underneath my belief that Don had always tried to do what he<br />
thought was right. That hadn’t always made him a good uncle, but it made him what we all were—flawed people who tried to do <strong>the</strong>ir best under<br />
rough circumstances. I had no grudges over our past. Only gratitude that he’d been in my life at all, and a wish that he didn’t have to leave it now.<br />
“Cat.” The faintest smile ghosted across Don’s mouth as he woke up and saw me next to his bed. “Didn’t think I’d get to see you again.”<br />
I took in a deep breath. It was that or I’d lose <strong>the</strong> fragile hold over my emotions that kept me from breaking into uncontrollable tears.<br />
“Yeah, well, you wouldn’t, except I hear you’re having obedience problems with your new recruit,” I said, managing a smile even though it felt like<br />
my face would splinter.<br />
Don let out a small, pained laugh. “Turns out your mo<strong>the</strong>r obeys orders just as well as you did.”<br />
His wry comment served to underscore our history, intensifying my grief at <strong>the</strong> thought <strong>of</strong> losing him. The only emotion my fa<strong>the</strong>r and I shared for<br />
each o<strong>the</strong>r was mutual loathing, but Don had found his way into my heart even before I knew I was related to him.<br />
“You know what <strong>the</strong>y say about <strong>the</strong> acorn and <strong>the</strong> tree,” I replied. Then my composure cracked and a few tears slipped out despite my best effort<br />
to hold <strong>the</strong>m back.<br />
Oh, Cat, don’t cry.<br />
Don didn’t say it out loud, but I heard in from his thoughts as clearly as if <strong>the</strong> words were shouted. His hand drifted over, patting mine before his<br />
eyes closed.<br />
“It’ll be okay,” he whispered.<br />
And I heard <strong>the</strong> o<strong>the</strong>r thing he didn’t say, but it echoed across my mind with more clarity than I thought I could stand.<br />
So glad <strong>the</strong> pain will be over soon . . .<br />
“Don.” I leaned forward, stroking his hand pleadingly. “You said no before, but it’s not too late if you’ve changed your mind. I can still—”<br />
“No,” he interrupted, opening his eyes. “I’ve lived longer than I should have as it is. Promise me you’ll let me go, and that you won’t bring me<br />
back.” I’m tired, so very tired, his thoughts sighed.<br />
A piece <strong>of</strong> my heart broke, but I held his gaze and nodded as I forced <strong>the</strong> words out, whisking away ano<strong>the</strong>r tear that slipped down my cheek.<br />
“I promise.”<br />
Good girl. Proud <strong>of</strong> you. So proud.<br />
I got up and began to pace so he couldn’t see that more tears rushed out at hearing that from him. I’d been in countless battles before, but letting<br />
him go would take <strong>the</strong> kind <strong>of</strong> strength I didn’t know if I had.<br />
“You don’t know how much I’m going to miss you,” I whispered, keeping my back to him, trying to wipe away <strong>the</strong> tears that wouldn’t stop flowing<br />
no matter how hard I tried to stuff <strong>the</strong>m back.<br />
He grunted s<strong>of</strong>tly. “I’ll miss you, too.” Love you, niece. Wish I would have gotten to know you sooner. Shouldn’t have waited so long . . .