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Scott and Sandy’s Testimonies 43
moved powerfully and Jeff and I became great friends in ministry. We
worked closely together for a couple of years. It was truly a new day for
me. I later asked Pastor Steve if he would cover my ministry as I felt
led to start a work in East Dallas. He said, “I see Jesus in you,” then
laid his hands on me to bless and pray over me. He directly placed a
minister over me in the Lord that I love dearly as a personal covering.
God released me into this work. I had a great name this time. I was not
rejected and felt a part of something, but the Lord had to kill this love
of my reputation that had become an idol. See, the Lord doesn’t care
about our reputations like we do. The scripture the Lord gave me to
confirm this death to reputation that was about to happen was concerning
Mary the mother of Jesus. She was used to bring the greatest work
of God into the earth of human history, but it came in a way that
caused everyone around her to think she had gotten pregnant out of
wedlock which totally destroyed her reputation. Jesus’ reputation was
smeared throughout his whole ministry. I believe the death of reputation
is important in all ministers. For example, I recently have seen a
high profile minister that guards his reputation with fierceness. I have a
friend that attends his church and lies were spread about him at the
church. The pastor ripped him to shreds trying to protect his own reputation!
He was obviously scared that the lies about my friend would
hurt his own reputation along with my friend. I hope this shows how
that idol will taint our ministries if we are not careful! I lived in fear that
I would lose this reputation and the respect and ACCEPTANCE that
went with it. I had to die to rejection completely, and I have now.
As you have read about at the end of Sandy’s testimony, God had spoken
to me about marrying her. I was shocked that my covering, my
father, and spiritual father agreed this was God. It was hard to get
mixed up in all the mess that Sandy was in. She was being lied about,
had a husband that molested her kids with CPS involved, and this was
not something that would look good on me getting involved in. See
how my love of reputation almost caused me to miss one of the greatest
things God has ever given me! I also knew her girls were so hurt at
losing their family, what their father had done to them, and were
probably not interested in me being a part of the family at all—
especially this soon. She had filed for divorce a year before the Lord
spoke to me about marrying her, but her husband was purposely delaying
the divorce because of some trick with his lawyer regarding the
criminal charges he was facing. I really didn’t understand how delaying
the divorce would help his case, but obviously they felt it would. I also
knew Sandy needed deliverance desperately and also needed to be
free from the marriage she was held in bondage to. Satan was giving a
very strong final tug to get her back through all of this.