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married shortly after it finalized. I found out about that through someone
I knew. The Lord released me from her, and I moved on.
Time for change: deliverance and healing
I moved in with my parents. I complained about losing everything to
the Lord and was really devastated. While at home I came across Rebecca
Brown, Derek Prince, and Cindy Jacobs books. I began to see
how my life really was. I wondered why rejection haunted me everywhere
I went. I mean it affected even pastors and Christians! I realized
it was a generational spirit that entered my mother’s life as a child. I
wondered why I was going through cycles of losing everything. I realized
I had generational curses from the Cherokee Indians on my dad’s
side of the family and Freemasonry on my mother’s side. This was
also why the black cloud and demons were at work. I was considered a
traitor to satan’s kingdom for not continuing in the service of satan, but
serving his enemy The Christ. I realized I had never dealt with soul ties
and sexual bondages from the past (thus sexual sins and lust), generational
alcoholism, and generational Jezebel and Ahab tendencies. My
past sins still had some power over my life. I had major unhealed emotional
wounds that caused weakness and being easily offended that I
had to deal with. I had a chip on my shoulder and was very sensitive to
hurt. There were huge gaping holes (gates of hell) for demons in my
life.
As I dealt with these issues, I shared the problems with my parents
and we all made it a matter of prayer and fasting. I learned about deliverance
and healing from the Lord taking me through it all by myself.
No one I knew would have known how to help me anyway. As I prayed
I felt demons leaving me. I felt the skies above me opening. I felt I
could see and breathe in the Spirit again. I saw light and hope. Suicide
fled from me. A river of the Holy Spirit and open heaven seemed to
invade my life. I was able to pray and read the word again for hours.
The atmosphere of heaven filled my life. I spent the next three years of
my life in prayer, fasting, and the word of God. All the failure in my
life was replaced with a great resolve, and I was determined to live
a holy stable life at any cost. Even back during my time of depression
and drinking I would cry as the Lord’s presence would fill the location
where I was at even stronger than I would feel at church many times.
Jesus saw this day coming. He loved me even in my weaknesses and
failures. He knew where I was. He knew my heart was sincere to live
holy and serve him. I hated sin and where I was at during those days. I
hated myself. But now I finally had the opportunity to be free! It was
wonderful.