ANGEL LIGHT - Fire and Ice Ministries River of Life Fellowship

40 Angel of Light
happened the first time. I was accused of running off a family whose
daughter was very rebellious, and I had to get onto her once for her
lack of respect. When I called the father to ask why they left the church
he said it had nothing to do with me. I was accused of being rebellious
because I left a paper I was given in my box at the church. I had no
office in the church and no office at home. I left it in my box after reading
it because I didn’t have a safe place to put it. I read it! I did what it
said! I just didn’t take it somewhere else. The third accusation was the
worst and biggest of all the lies above. The pastor had authorized a
very small loan to me that I was paying back out of my paycheck
weekly. The church financial secretary was taking a sum out of my
check before I saw the check. This loan was authorized by both of
these people present. The board asked the pastor about the loan and
why they weren’t involved in the decision. He didn’t involve them because
it was such a small loan for a couple of hundred dollars. Of
course under the pressure he denied ever authorizing the loan in the
first place and basically said I stole the money. So now I was being
called a theif. These were the three reasons I was asked to leave. I was
only there for six months.
Destruction Cycle Complete Again
For the second time in my life I had lost everything. I was broken, devastated,
suicidal, and lonely. I had a night job as a security patrolman
and was about to move in with a friend of mine. I had nothing so it
would have been easy to move in with him. My father called to tell me
he really felt I was to move home. I was totally against it in my pride,
but I really had nothing anyway. So I agreed and quit my job to move
back to east Texas. How could this keep happening? I was sincere in
my heart! I loved the Lord and didn’t want to keep going through cycles
of failure, defeat, and losing everything. I wanted to live holy and
please him. I moved in with my parents only days after the twin towers
fell. I was back in Pensacola out of sheer desperation on September
15th, 2001. Joseph Garlington preached and it was awesome. I needed
the laughter he brought as well as the anointing. He is such a funny
and anointed man of God.
Before I lost everything again the Lord had given me a word while sitting
on patrol one night as a security worker that he was “releasing to
me a double portion anointing and triple portion was for a time to
come.” How in the world could this be?! I was such a failure! God could
never use me, I thought. While in Florida Pastor Kilpatrick prayed over
me and a ball of fire shot into my stomach that began to consume me.
It was as though I could breathe again spiritually. It was right after this
experience I never saw my wife again. She filed for divorce and was