ANGEL LIGHT - Fire and Ice Ministries River of Life Fellowship
ANGEL LIGHT - Fire and Ice Ministries River of Life Fellowship
ANGEL LIGHT - Fire and Ice Ministries River of Life Fellowship
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40 Angel <strong>of</strong> Light<br />
happened the first time. I was accused <strong>of</strong> running <strong>of</strong>f a family whose<br />
daughter was very rebellious, <strong>and</strong> I had to get onto her once for her<br />
lack <strong>of</strong> respect. When I called the father to ask why they left the church<br />
he said it had nothing to do with me. I was accused <strong>of</strong> being rebellious<br />
because I left a paper I was given in my box at the church. I had no<br />
<strong>of</strong>fice in the church <strong>and</strong> no <strong>of</strong>fice at home. I left it in my box after reading<br />
it because I didn’t have a safe place to put it. I read it! I did what it<br />
said! I just didn’t take it somewhere else. The third accusation was the<br />
worst <strong>and</strong> biggest <strong>of</strong> all the lies above. The pastor had authorized a<br />
very small loan to me that I was paying back out <strong>of</strong> my paycheck<br />
weekly. The church financial secretary was taking a sum out <strong>of</strong> my<br />
check before I saw the check. This loan was authorized by both <strong>of</strong><br />
these people present. The board asked the pastor about the loan <strong>and</strong><br />
why they weren’t involved in the decision. He didn’t involve them because<br />
it was such a small loan for a couple <strong>of</strong> hundred dollars. Of<br />
course under the pressure he denied ever authorizing the loan in the<br />
first place <strong>and</strong> basically said I stole the money. So now I was being<br />
called a theif. These were the three reasons I was asked to leave. I was<br />
only there for six months.<br />
Destruction Cycle Complete Again<br />
For the second time in my life I had lost everything. I was broken, devastated,<br />
suicidal, <strong>and</strong> lonely. I had a night job as a security patrolman<br />
<strong>and</strong> was about to move in with a friend <strong>of</strong> mine. I had nothing so it<br />
would have been easy to move in with him. My father called to tell me<br />
he really felt I was to move home. I was totally against it in my pride,<br />
but I really had nothing anyway. So I agreed <strong>and</strong> quit my job to move<br />
back to east Texas. How could this keep happening? I was sincere in<br />
my heart! I loved the Lord <strong>and</strong> didn’t want to keep going through cycles<br />
<strong>of</strong> failure, defeat, <strong>and</strong> losing everything. I wanted to live holy <strong>and</strong><br />
please him. I moved in with my parents only days after the twin towers<br />
fell. I was back in Pensacola out <strong>of</strong> sheer desperation on September<br />
15th, 2001. Joseph Garlington preached <strong>and</strong> it was awesome. I needed<br />
the laughter he brought as well as the anointing. He is such a funny<br />
<strong>and</strong> anointed man <strong>of</strong> God.<br />
Before I lost everything again the Lord had given me a word while sitting<br />
on patrol one night as a security worker that he was “releasing to<br />
me a double portion anointing <strong>and</strong> triple portion was for a time to<br />
come.” How in the world could this be?! I was such a failure! God could<br />
never use me, I thought. While in Florida Pastor Kilpatrick prayed over<br />
me <strong>and</strong> a ball <strong>of</strong> fire shot into my stomach that began to consume me.<br />
It was as though I could breathe again spiritually. It was right after this<br />
experience I never saw my wife again. She filed for divorce <strong>and</strong> was