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be. I also began to look at pornography again! I hadn’t done this since
before my salvation either. After months of this drinking and suicidal
tendencies I truly went to take my life. As I moved forward to do this,
there was literally something between me and the means to kill myself.
I couldn’t do it. I broke down and cried out to God. I hated myself. I
decided to ask God’s forgiveness for turning to alcohol to numb the
pain, and I turned away from it. I truly got on my face and repented.
Familiar Faces
Right after that the old pastor that ran me off from my first church
wanted me to come back and help him. He felt it was never God’s will
for me to have left in the first place. I felt it was, but not for the reasons
I left or with the circumstances surrounding my departure. I was desperate
to get close to God again and prayed about it. I knew I had sincerely
got forgiveness from the Lord and was living right at this point in
time. After praying about it, I felt God was in it. I know all of this is hard
to believe for some out there. I was as unstable as they come. I think
we would all be surprised at how many there are out there like this. I
was back at my first church for six months and saw a move of God’s
Spirit. Young people were being baptized in the Holy Spirit, getting
right with God, and hit by the power of God. This was a great encouragement
to me when I needed it. My wife didn’t support me at all and
didn’t attend some of the youth services, but she knew how to look
good to the church people so no one knew the darkness in our marriage.
I connected with my spiritual son there and he is with me to this
day.
The Second Cycle of Destruction begins
I was at home one day in my recliner when I felt a spirit enter my
home. I recognized that presence as being with me before when I lost
everything. From that moment on I literally began losing everything
again. I would say within around a two month span I had lost everything
again! Within this time frame my wife had a miscarriage, the pastor
once again turned against me with the same type of false accusations
as before (it was exactly the way it happened years ago), and my
wife left me around the time of September 2001 when the twin towers
fell in New York. I remember watching it on the news. She came
through the house and took all she wanted leaving me with what she
didn’t want. Some of this was because I refused to take on her debt
she had acquired against my wishes.
Let me give you examples of what type of reasons surrounded my being
asked to leave the church again. This was very similar to the way it