ANGEL LIGHT - Fire and Ice Ministries River of Life Fellowship

34 Angel of Light
in the sanctuary after everything went down with the woman I dated for
a few weeks and simply weeping uncontrollably in the dark. I knew I
had failed God. I was at the altar area asking his forgiveness. I literally
felt arms around me and that my head was on a shoulder. I don’t know
to this day if it was the Lord or an angel, but I do know I was not alone
that day in the sanctuary.
It was January of 1997. During this time, the Lord called me to a radical
life of prayer. This all began after my sin, but even before I left the
church in Mesquite. God had broken me and I was ready for his touch.
I began to pray for hours a day and get into the word. After leaving the
church I continued this life of prayer. Living with my parents, being
single, and being rejected by people helped me have plenty of time for
this. I would spend at times 12 hours straight in prayer. Right before I
left the previous church I was at, I attended a powerful revival service
with anointed man of God there that was a visiting evangelist. I had
seen this type of service my whole life, but this was different. I knew
this man was someone that walked with God. He came by me and put
his Bible on my head during the altar time at the end of the service. I
fell over sideways in my pew. He went on praying for others. Then after
I stood up, he called me down to the front and said that when he was
around my age, a man from London came to preach were he was at
and passed his mantle onto him. Then the evangelist went on to say,
“The Holy Spirit says you are to receive this mantle tonight.” This evangelist
prayed over me seven times baptizing me into what he called his
mantle. I fell each time and others picked me up. Those around me
told me later that the whole group around me would fall too and others
would have to rush up to the front to come pick me up. All I remember
was feeling God stronger than I ever felt him in my life. I was out for a
long time pinned to the floor under the glory of God. So God was moving
in my life as well.
I had left the church in Mesquite devastated, and It was now in 1997
that I would revisit the Pensacola revival again. I knew that my life was
in a destruction period and I needed answers. I had a girl friend that I
met at the church before I left that I would marry later. I had just read a
book by Benny Hinn called The Anointing. During the reading of this
book, the Lord spoke to me that I was to be an end time Apostle. This
was not encouraging at all. This literally scared me half to death. I
never felt I would really even be in the ministry. I was a failure and
knew it. How could I ever do anything for the Lord? I didn’t even know
what an Apostle was! I wept through reading the whole book The
Anointing and couldn’t put it down. While in line at the revival in Florida
a man from London approached me. He said, “I have a word from God
for you.” I was open to any kind of encouragement that could possibly
come to me. He said, “You have a strong Apostolic calling upon your