Spring 2010 - The Silhouette Literary and Art Magazine - emcvt
Spring 2010 - The Silhouette Literary and Art Magazine - emcvt
Spring 2010 - The Silhouette Literary and Art Magazine - emcvt
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Fiction Editor’s Choice<br />
<strong>The</strong> Loving Reader<br />
Zaki Barzinji<br />
Thoughts from Zaki<br />
“This piece was born out of complete frustration with my inability to say<br />
anything of meaning. I was on a plane home from Cairo (where I spent a<br />
semester) <strong>and</strong> trying to get back into the swing of writing for the coming<br />
semester of English courses. I felt (<strong>and</strong> still often feel) this unshakeable feeling<br />
that to truly succeed as a writer, there is this tremendous pressure to say<br />
something profound, witty, out of this world, just dripping with brilliance<br />
with every word. I couldn’t take it. I wrote the first lines of this poem, then<br />
wrote “I can never think how to begin/So caught am I in this race for wit/<br />
Twist some new cliché <strong>and</strong> polish/ Shiny new bowl for the same old shit”. As I<br />
threw my head back in exasperation, with babies crying left <strong>and</strong> right, choppy<br />
shouted Arabic pelting my ears, <strong>and</strong> Hannah Montana playing on the tiny<br />
screens before me, I shut my eyes to escape this strange, squawking, stupid, <strong>and</strong><br />
brilliant world called language. And then –cliché alert- all I saw was the face<br />
of the most beautiful woman I had just met in pyramid l<strong>and</strong>… <strong>and</strong> it wrote<br />
itself. That’s it, <strong>and</strong> that’s me.<br />
“<br />
How do you put feelings to words?<br />
Squeeze letters out of sunshine?<br />
Can seas of black ink ever begin to cover<br />
<strong>The</strong> blinding rainbow of joy that courses through life’s pen?<br />
So why try?<br />
Why reduce the infinite prism of the universe<br />
To the mere cracks of language?<br />
You may scribe a thous<strong>and</strong> delicious words,<br />
But paper shall forever have but one taste.<br />
A single scent.<br />
Fill it with every last wondrous sound rattling in the mind’s ear,<br />
And all it will ever sing is the gentle whip of a rustle.<br />
So. <strong>The</strong>n.<br />
You will be my language.<br />
Your eyes my adjectives, for lost in them do I see the world described.<br />
<strong>The</strong> sway of your hips, my cadence <strong>and</strong> meter.<br />
Moans <strong>and</strong> murmurs, my onomatopoeias <strong>and</strong> colloquialisms.<br />
And your voice... the quill, your heavenly song... the ink.<br />
<strong>The</strong> only calligraphy I ever want etched on my soul’s parchment.<br />
I only want to speak you,<br />
To turn each of your pages,<br />
Love every crinkle, smudge, rip, <strong>and</strong> tear,<br />
Because they mean<br />
You are.<br />
A pristine book whose spine has never been cracked,<br />
Just another done-up, pretty cover,<br />
Is not worth a single glance,<br />
From the loving reader.<br />
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