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If I kept it to myself - World YWCA

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Young women intervene in a world w<strong>it</strong>h AIDS<br />

Emma Tuahepa-Kamapoha<br />

I believe that engaging religious and trad<strong>it</strong>ional<br />

leaders on HIV and AIDS issues is imperative in helping<br />

commun<strong>it</strong>ies deal w<strong>it</strong>h stigma and discrimination.<br />

I had just completed high school and went <strong>to</strong><br />

college <strong>to</strong> do a Diploma in Education. After<br />

having an HIV test the result came back<br />

HIV pos<strong>it</strong>ive. I was just 21 years old when I<br />

was raped. My innocence, my future seems<br />

unsecured and in add<strong>it</strong>ion <strong>to</strong> this, I did not<br />

have counselling. I am not sure I unders<strong>to</strong>od<br />

what stigma would mean. I was more ashamed<br />

of <strong>myself</strong> and about what people in my own<br />

commun<strong>it</strong>y would think about me. At first, I felt<br />

like a complete failure and I needed <strong>to</strong> lead<br />

<strong>myself</strong> in the direction of healing. The real<strong>it</strong>y<br />

was I have been living w<strong>it</strong>h HIV and I now had<br />

conformation. I knew there was life after being<br />

diagnosed HIV pos<strong>it</strong>ive. Beside these pos<strong>it</strong>ive<br />

thoughts, I was angry and still felt like killing<br />

<strong>myself</strong>. However, I am the first born of five<br />

children, I did not want them <strong>to</strong> become infected.<br />

I was raped and could not forget that <strong>it</strong> needed a<br />

measure of sacrifice.<br />

I have life shows on radio and TV and I continued<br />

w<strong>it</strong>h my studies. I felt my efforts already were<br />

appreciated. I wanted <strong>to</strong> know more about HIV<br />

and I wanted <strong>to</strong> do much more.<br />

My first regional trip was <strong>to</strong> Botswana where I<br />

had an opportun<strong>it</strong>y <strong>to</strong> meet other women living<br />

w<strong>it</strong>h HIV and AIDS at the SWAA conference.<br />

These women encouraged me, pushing me <strong>to</strong><br />

do more advocacy work. I was supported by<br />

UNAIDS Namibia and travelled w<strong>it</strong>h the UNAIDS<br />

Country programme representative, Mrs. Mary<br />

Guinn Delaney, who later became my men<strong>to</strong>r and<br />

In Namibia, the culture does not allow women <strong>to</strong><br />

speak out but I could no longer be silent. At that<br />

stage, I still believed I was going <strong>to</strong> die soon so<br />

I was comm<strong>it</strong>ted <strong>to</strong> saving at least one person’s<br />

life.<br />

In November 1996 I became the first Namibian<br />

<strong>to</strong> disclose my HIV status <strong>to</strong> the nation on<br />

television. This real<strong>it</strong>y shook the nation because<br />

I still looked very healthy. I got support from<br />

the Founding Father of the Nation Dr. Sam<br />

Nujoma by then the President of Namibia, Dr.<br />

Nicky Iyambo and The Minister of Health Social<br />

service by then Libertine Amathila. Since then,<br />

I have had the opportun<strong>it</strong>y <strong>to</strong> vis<strong>it</strong> all 13 regions<br />

of Namibia, spreading messages of hope and<br />

encouragement <strong>to</strong> young people in univers<strong>it</strong>y,<br />

schools, colleges and vocational training centres.<br />

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