2011 Issue - Santa Fe Community College
2011 Issue - Santa Fe Community College
2011 Issue - Santa Fe Community College
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Waiting<br />
by Josh Goller<br />
“So how did she meet you” the husband asked. He stood next to<br />
me, staring out at the half-filled hospital parking lot as I struggled<br />
against the wind to light the penultimate cigarette from my emergency<br />
pack. I exhaled and watched the plume spiral out into the rain.<br />
“We were reading the same book,” I said, daring to look at him. “At<br />
a coffee shop.”<br />
She’d told me he was a college professor, but I never expected him<br />
to so exactly look the part. Crop of silver hair with matching beard, bifocals,<br />
corduroy pants. He could have been her father. Despite my love<br />
handles and crow’s feet, he made me feel like a kid.<br />
“But I suppose she didn’t collapse in her nightgown at the coffee<br />
shop.” The husband shuffled in place, as if the damp cement would climb<br />
his legs should he keep them still.<br />
“No, I suppose not.” I balled my fist in my pocket. I’d never been in<br />
a fight.<br />
A siren pierced the dark and grew closer. I noticed a glob of her<br />
froth still clinging to the spot over my breastbone, where her head had<br />
slumped as I carried her from my bungalow to the car after her seizure.<br />
For a moment, I thought about keeping it there. But I loosened my fist,<br />
pulled out my hand, and wiped.<br />
“Did she say anything” the husband asked. “After it happened Did<br />
she come to at all during the drive over”<br />
The ambulance shot into the parking lot and its brakes squeaked in<br />
front of the awning. The paramedics rolled an old woman on a gurney<br />
past us and into the emergency room.<br />
I looked at the husband, his eyes dark and wet with hope. If I could<br />
have remembered his name I would have said she had called for him.<br />
“She opened her eyes once, for a second or two, but that’s all. I’m<br />
sorry.” My words tasted like chalk. Clouds overhead flickered with<br />
cloaked lightning and winked out again.<br />
“You’re not the first, you know that right You’re not special.”<br />
I wanted to say I didn’t know what he was talking about, that he was<br />
110 <strong>Santa</strong> <strong>Fe</strong> Literary Review