Just Shut The Fuck Up, And Do Something By, Morgan Towers ...

Just Shut The Fuck Up,
And
Do Something
By, Morgan Towers

Just Shut The Fuck Up,
And
Do Something
By Morgan Towers
Cup O Java Studio
Bronx, NY.

Published by Cup O Java Studio
Bronx, New York USA
Just Shut The Fuck Up, And Do Something
Copyright 2009
First Limited Numbered Edition
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Satanic Liberation copyright 2001
Satanism and Self-Actualization copyright 2001
Satanism and Love copyright 2003
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My Friends,
and
Those who have made a difference in this vast open wasteland.

Table of Contents
Introduction 1
Satanic Liberation 4
Initiation 6
Religion or Spirituality 8
Satanism and Love 10
Satanism and Self-Actualization 12
Vampirism 15
Predatory 16
God 17
Reaper 18
Madness 20
Laughter 21
Chaos 22
Conclusion 23
End Notes 24
References 25
About the Author 26

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Introduction
Fuck you, and I don't care. I just hate everyone equally, till I’m proved wrong. I can't
stand the whining, even my own. I wrote this to remind myself of some basic shit. If it
helps you on your path, and you learn something new, great. If not, well, who really
gives a shit. It’s called the solitary left hand path for a reason. You don’t get along with
everyone, but along the way you do meet some great people that you can share your life
with for a moment. I want to thank my friends, my baby cake minion army, and all those
who try to make a difference in this vast barren wasteland of humanity. You know who
you are, and I don’t need to name you all. If I tried I would leave someone out by
mistake, and then you get all that piss and vinegar. So lets leave it at thanking all my
occult brethren and fucked up friends.
This isn't nice, and sweet. I am tired of all the hand holding, and acceptance of everyone
bullshit. The reality of the world we live in, is that most people are stupid, have no
fucking clue, and need to be wiped off the face of the earth. They wake up, go to work,
go home, watch television, and breed. No desire for anything else, a nice cattle
existence. They are just fucking food for the fodder, and wear others down that want
something more. The masses of idiots, tear down, destroy, and burn that which they do
not understand. Their small minds can't wrap around ideas that may be bigger
themselves. Yes, it does sound harsh to some but is not truth always harsh.
There comes a point when you have to grab yourself to decide what are you going to do
about them, as well as yourself. You have to learn how to best manipulate the herd of
cattle for your own good. How to make them feel safe and secure so they will be happy
to give you whatever you want. You have to decide or figure out your own place on the
food chain.
You have to push yourself to achieve more even when you are tired. Yes, sometimes
things will get you down, and try to drag you down even deeper into a hole from which
you may think there is no way out. You have to learn more, focus more, and drive
yourself harder so that when you look in the mirror, you know who you are, and what
you have accomplished. It is the matter of creating a legacy that you can be proud of.
One that shows who you are, what you feel, and what you are inside.
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responsibility for your personal choices. Realizing that your actions have consequences
in the real world, and accepting them. Knowing what you want, and what you have to do
to get it. Knowing that if you settle, you only hold yourself back.
If you are not happy with a given situation, Fucking Change It. Stop whining and
complaining, your Life is in your own hands and no great spirit from beyond is going to
rescue you from your own stupidity. It's about accepting nothing less than everything
you desire, as long as you are willing to work for it.
It's about challenging your mental, physical, and emotional limits, and pushing beyond
it. You are only as stupid as you allow yourself to be. You are only as weak as you want
to be. No one can make you a victim except yourself. You stand up for what you believe
in and are strong/smart enough to support it. You set various goals, and work to achieve
them. If that’s too fucking hard to do, then maybe you should put this book down now,
and go read porn.
You face and admit to all your carnal desires. You acknowledge what gets you off as
fucked up as it might be. You find a way to make it happen within the limits of the law.
There is no real necessary guilt in regards to pleasure. Sex begins in the mind, and if you
are too afraid to look or find what turns you on, go in a bathroom and just jerk off to it.
That’s it, nothing happens, well nothing except a small mess your hands. There is no
necessary shame in that act.
You don't hide from what drives you. You accept yourself. Only by accepting yourself,
and all that you are, can you ever really grow and become more.
You choose your own initiation rite. You face your past, your fears, and your weaknesses
then move through them. If you can not face and conquer your past, it will devour you.
You challenge your mind so that there comes a time when you can debate on any
subject, and both sides of any issues. If you can not learn to see both sides of an issue no
matter how taboo it may be, how can you ever learn knowledge.
The change and growth maybe hard, but not as hard as living an empty, useless life
when you know it could have been more. Are you happy being stupid, or do you really
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Fuck the masses, I'm not a team player. Your all lucky I sat my ass down to write this. I
could be writing Porn. Don’t live to end up regretting the things you didn’t do.
Just Fucking Do Something.
Morgan

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Satanic Liberation
It is the individuals' choice to live their lives in mental bondage or with the freedom to
think. The ability to make decisions based upon your own set of personal values is so
very hard for the masses to understand. It is far easier to follow the moral molasses of
mass thought then to step away from it and follow your own path and think for yourself.
Many people claim to be born Satanist yet few actually realize what that means. It
means always knowing whom you are, where you come from, and the willingness to do
whatever it takes to survive another day. It is the innate force of Will inside you that
powers you to strive and achieve more and be the best that you can be physically,
mentally and emotionally.
When people claim to have liberated themselves from the mass delusions of the
common mans' thoughts and morals you have to look at it in many ways. Is it for them
an escape route that allows them their personal vices Is it a way to strike back at
authority figures with no real substance behind what they think Satanism means Or is it
a realization and recognition of their own personal values and beliefs that were always
there.
Satanism is not just all about being able to do whatever you want. It's about taking
advantage of everything that comes your way and running with it. It's about making your
own life easier and living by your own personal choices, values and ideals. It's about
being able to do all that you want and recognize the personal responsibility that comes
along with your actions.
Suffering, whining, and complaining are useless weaknesses. You have the ability to
change things if you truly desire to. Your inner force of Will should be strong enough to
do this. If you are unhappy with something, change it. If you like suffering and
complaining go to confession at your nearby Xitian church. I am sure they can certainly
listen to your problem and direct you to your knees.
As an individual, you can have the desire and means to do anything. As a Satanist it is
the internal Force of Will to succeed that counts most. It is this strong internal personal
Force of Will that Will Liberate those that have it from the mass conformity of everyone
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walk a long, lonely path, apart from the herd. Can you or are you truly ready to walk the
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Initiation
So the day comes when you decide you are really ready. Not some Bullshit, I’ll do it, I’ll
do it, but when deep down inside you know its time for something more. When you
decide to align your inner self with your own spiritual/ego and focus to bring yourself
together to make a change in your own inner view and external world view. Yes, it
sounds like complicated made up bullshit, but its not. Its actually simple.
This is when your ready to prove yourself to yourself. You must want this change for
yourself and not for anyone else. No one else cares if you’re an asshole, no one cares if
you’re a loser, no one gives a shit. The only person in the world that really cares and
matters is yourself. That’s it, no one else. You have to want and desire the words, not just
spew them into the universe like your last jiszz. It has to have meaning.
Focus, and set aside a few hours. Decide on what you want to do. What do you want to
accomplish What symbolizes the new thought patterns that you want to hold on to
What is the “More” that you want for your mental life Not your physical life, such as
cash, monies, and sex. Think about what will fuel your passion for this next phase of
your life
Do you have an idea of what will fuel your passion for something more yet Can you
visualize it, draw it. Use words with symbolic meanings to convey your thoughts, or
even photographic images. Can you give life to your new passion, or inner drive
This next part is all you. You personalize it. You take what you have gathered, info,
images, etc, then go forth and create a new mental you of who you are now inside. You
create your own initiation into your own future unknown.
Some suggestions are a solo sexual or psycho-drama. Shower first to symbolize washing
away of your past, giving yourself a fresh physical break with the past. Then in a fireproof
bowl burn and destroy symbols of what you are leaving behind to reinforce it. A
different one would be whereby you raise your own inner energies to focus on your
symbolic goals, then burn them and release them to the universe. On occasion sexual
energies or emotional energies can be used. If you want to be permanently reminded of
your actions, a tattoo that you create will do it.

Just do something that will leave a mental or physical reminder of where you are now
and where you are heading. Something that you can reflect upon when days seem hard
and nights seem longer than usual. Something that can help you remember that the
change has started and will continue to develop within your psyche. Welcome the new
you of yourself. Give your self some special indulgence.
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Religion or Spirituality
On some levels it may appear that these two words religion and spirituality mean the
same thing but they don’t. At least they don’t to me, but if you want to argue that they
are, go read another book.
Religion, any and all have one basic thing in common: Blind faith to a set of rules or
dogma written by a man or men, who individuals believe was channeling the voice of
God.
The voice could speak any language, contradict itself, and start wars. The voice says
only the faithful will be saved, but who are the true faithful. Among the various
religions, their people cry for peace and war at the same time. Peace eternal to those who
follow, and death and eternal sorrow for the unfaithful.
All religions tell the same stories, teach the same lessons, and cast the same blame. The
only difference is the names they use.
These religions use the same formula which they follow endlessly and push it upon all
disbelievers and believers alike. Don’t think, just listen, conform, believe, and most
importantly don’t ask questions. Religion wants blind faith, obedience, and desires
control of all of you. Over the years, these religions have done anything and everything
to convert people. Death is never not an option. It is still being done today, if you just
open and read the newspaper. Its just a matter of looking at it all without a veil of
prejudice or fear over your eyes.
Spirituality, how to explain it clearly and simply. It is, in a way the combination of your
inner core views, with your own outer external world views, combined with the desire
for the betterment of the world however you see fit. Think about it….
Your own spirituality doesn’t have to be nice and pretty. It is what you feel to be “right”.
What is right, in this regard it is how you feel. How you define that term, what it means
to you. If you think the world is wasteland full of cattle that needs butchering, okay. If
you feel that a total cleaning of the world is needed, that is your spirituality. If you
believe there is no God but yourself, then Bang you got it. If you believe in angels and
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are your own issues. If you believe in world peace, new age crap, and hippy tree
hugging bull shit, why are you still reading this book Whatever the fuck you believe in
regards to your own inner mess or turmoil, its your spirituality.
I believe I am my own God, and with that in mind. My spirituality encompasses making
me happy, worshiping myself, and doing the most I can in order to become a more
educated successful God form.
Another point of this means that I believe that everyone is not equal, everyone is not a
special snowflake. To say that everyone is equal is a lie. People are unequal in size,
shape, intelligence, ability, and innate gifts. Why do people have to be so political
correct and deny the basic truth of the matter
Yeah, I can be an Asshole at times, but what true God isn’t.

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Satanism and Love
One of the first things you learn about Satanism is that it is ego driven and that you are
to take all responsibilities for your actions. It is that you are the first and only person that
matters and that you act in your own best interest. How does one combine their personal
views of Satanism with Love Is it a matter of recognizing the carnality of human desire
and the idea of ownership Is it a matter of taking care of a personal investment of time
and energy in another individual Is it a way of opening yourself up to a greater
awareness of the "All, No-Thing or Universe" which in turn may open yourself up to
further self-realization and higher personal evolution
LaVey talks about Loving only those who deserve your Love. He speaks about it in a
"human/ physical way". He ties Love and Hate together as a way to explain what one is
and how it can not exist or be felt or explained without the other. He goes on to say that
since a Satanist can admit to feeling and expressing his hatred he is able to love more
fully and deeply. If you waste your energy giving it up to those whom you hate, you give
them power. Why would a Satanist give anyone power or energy over themselves
Would not this take away from your core self Is just the recognition of hatred enough
If you can not smite those or destroy them is not better to write them off and ignore them
thus freeing yourself and your energy from the chains of hatred that would tie you to
those whom you hate Would not this freedom from hatred and energy loss allow you to
experience Love more fully
Eliphas Levi in his book Transcendental Magic takes two different views in regards to
Love. He talks about how Love or Sexual Love can destroy you. He then goes on to say,
"Love is one of the great instruments of magical power, but it is categorically forbidden
to the Magus, at least as an intoxication or passion."(1). Was he thinking of the all
encompassing type of Love where you give up everything for another individual Would
not this type of Love go against the basic ideals of a Satanist Would not one of the
hardest lines be to draw of what is a rational or irrational type or kind of Love Is it
possible to draw the lines before the act of Love occurs or can such lines only be seen
after the fact Was Levi talking about how Love in theory can you make you blind to the
truth of things and thus would be a horrible fate for a Magus to come to At another
point Levi goes on to talk about how "Love is one of the mythological images of the
Great Secret and the Great Agent, because it postulates at once an action and a passion, a
void and a plenitude, a shaft and a wound."(2). These opposites of images and symbols

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appear to be similar to LaVeys' idea of Love and Hate but I feel they are different and
should possible be interpreted differently.
Crowley as Levi looked on Love in many different ways. At one point in Magick Liber
Aba (book four-parts I- IV) he speaks about how Love does not really exist below the
Abyss. He also goes on about how when Love is not perfect, it is a illusion and
dangerous, yet says one should learn from it to "be worthy of that perfect love"(3). This
appears to go against his statements of "Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the
Law"(4) and "Love is the law, love under will"(5). When Crowley speaks about Divine
Love, he calls it "a universal solvent and harmonizer"(6) with no limits. This part aligns
itself better with his well know two statements. How does a Satanist whom reads
Crowley put his own ideas about physical human love in regards to his personal will and
desires into a paradigm of what Crowley was talking about Especially since many
Satanist claim to be their own God and thus Divine.
Is the best way to understand Satanism and Love in regards to your own personal system
just to follow your inner voice, will and ignore the words of others Is it the opening of
oneself to new experience and dangers that feeds ones' ego and desires Is it the
experiences and knowledge (of Love) gained through rational and irrational acts and
forces of will that make an individual more stronger physically, mentally and
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Satanism and Self-Actualization
One of the great struggles that one encounters in life is the struggle to achieve something
more. The inner drive or force of will that separates an individual from the crowd. It is
the realization that one is not happy in a simple content existence. It is the recognized
inner struggle to progress and proceed forward towards being and accomplishing all that
is possible for that individual to achieve. It is also taking this gained knowledge and
understanding when is the best possible time to use it.
Abraham Maslow’s theory of self-actualization states that, "Self-actualization is a never
ending process that moves in a dynamic sequence upward through a continuum. The
higher the individual processes, the more "profound happiness, serenity, and richness of
the inner life" he or she finds"(1). Anton LaVey’s book the Satanic Bible, explains his
theories and philosophy of living and succeeding as an individual in today’s world.
LaVey states that, "One of the magician's greatest weapons is knowing himself; his
talents, abilities, physical attractions and detraction's, etc., and when, where, and with
whom to utilize them!"(2).
In discussing their individual theories, both Maslow and LaVey try to put their ideas and
theories into simple terms that can easily be understood. It is this understanding of terms
that focuses on a recognition of the individuals' path or steps that on must follow in
order to become a more fully developed individual.
Maslow presents a hierarchy of needs that he feels most everyone has the ability to
follow. He explains his five basic steps in the path of self-actualization as a hierarchy of
need. "The hierarchy of need implies that the lower needs have been adequately satisfied
before higher needs emerge. The process is epigenetic in nature… in which one item
builds upon another in space and time"(3). Maslow believes that once you start
becoming self-actualized, you continue on to try to reach the B-Values. The B-Values
include "the need to know (truth seeking) and aesthetic needs (beauty-seeking)"(4).
LaVey did not believe that everyone could follow or understand his theories and
philosophy, he believed that the masses of humanity were mostly sheep that were
content to live in blissful ignorance of the possibility of achieving more. LaVey wrote,
"we have made no grandiose promises of infallible enlightenment and emphasized that
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governed by one's human potential. That "Satan" is a representational concept, accepted
by each according to his or her needs"(5). He uses his nine satanic statements to outline
and codify his theory. He delves more into these statements in his infernal diatribe.
LaVey appears to agree with Maslow on some levels when he states, "The Satanist
believes in complete gratification of his ego…Only if a person's own ego is sufficiently
fulfilled, can he afford to be kind and complimentary to others, without robbing himself
of his self-respect"(6).
An individual, trying to follow Maslows' five basic steps, may never complete them all
before they die. Each step must be fully completed successfully before the next one can
be tackled. If that step is not completely successful an individual may remain in that
phase and never proceed. Maslows' first step encompasses the basic physiological needs.
His second step, the need for safety. The third step, would be the need for love and a
sense of belonging. His fourth step deals with self-esteem. His fifth step is the need for
self-actualization. LaVeys' nine satanic statements do not have to be followed in any
particular order. The individual rules are not part of a rigid program. When taken
together the rules form the basis of LaVeys' Satanists uncommon common sense rules
for successful living.
The process of self-actualization is not an overnight occurrence. It is a life long act of
consistently striving to achieve something more. It is a commitment to ideas that are not
pretty to some with a recognition that life is not fair. It is the recognition that one must
work towards a future whereby on can use their talents, capabilities and knowledge to
positively enhance their own life.
Maslow sums up his feelings on self-actualization by stating, "So far as motivational
status is concerned, healthy people have sufficiently gratified their basic needs for
safety, belongingness, love, respect and self-esteem so that they are motivated primarily
by trends to self-actualization. (defined as ongoing actualization of potentials, capacities
and talents, as fulfillment of mission (or call, fate, destiny, or vocation), as a fuller
knowledge of, and acceptance of, the persons' own intrinsic nature, as an unceasing
trend towards unity, integration, or synergy within the person)"(7).
LaVey disagrees with this idea because of his theory that the common man at a point
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would also disagree because in his theories there is no mission, "Life is the great
indulgence-death, the great abstinence. Therefore, make the most of life--HERE AND
NOW!"(8).
Transcendence is thought to mean going beyond the ordinary within your self. It is
thought to be the goal of mans' search for inner fulfillment. LaVey offers no clear and
easy path to transcendence. There is no right way or wrong way to go about finding your
path to physical, spiritual, or emotional transcendence. LaVeys' approach to it is to live
ones' life to the fullest. This transcendence is a continuous process that only evolves
when one keeps striving towards growth and recognizes that the quest for knowledge,
aesthetic truth and the force of will is a hard path to follow. It involves a deep
commitment to oneself and a desire to reach a center or balance within yourself that can
bring about inner peace and contentment in relation to how one leads their life and in
relation to ones' interactions with the world around them. LaVey states that "Adherence
to the sensible and humanistic new morality of Satanism can-and will-evolve society in
which our children can grow up healthy and without the devastating moral
encumbrances of our existing sick society"(10).
Maslow expresses his theory by stating that, "Transcendence refers to the very highest
and inclusive or holistic levels of human consciousness, behaving and relating, as ends
rather than as means, to oneself, to significant others, to human beings in general, to
other species, to nature and to the cosmos"(9).
It would appear that while Maslow and LaVey have different approaches as to how an
individual succeeds in living their life to the fullest in regards to self-actualization, they
do agree on the final path or steps as to how one may achieve personal transcendence.
In comparing and contrasting these theories of self-actualization and transcendence, I
found them to be closer on many issues than previously expected. While the philosophy
and theories of Satanism is considered outside the "norm" and a fringe element, it does
have many valid points and ideas contained within it. By comparing and contrasting it,
with a recognized theory of human development, I had hoped to show its' value and uses
in an individuals development. Thus possibly resulting in the minimizing of prejudices
against the actual basic philosophy theory of Satanism.

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Vampirism
A lot of people won’t understand this. For those that do, well parts may be redundant
because its already part of your nature. This goes beyond basic fairy tales or Hollywood
movie stories. It goes past what you may know of simple vampiric origins.
The vampire story was not just created in a book by Stoker. It has a long and varied path
able to be traced back to Sumerian and Babylonian stories and spells found in their
books. Almost every culture on earth has their own tales about those who are different
and walk at night.
Its elements can be taken and made part of your mindset. Its not a matter of dressing in
black and having fangs, it goes beyond that. It is a deep awareness of yourself, your
abilities, and a strong enough will that you will get what you desire. It’s being able to
size up a room, decide what you want from it, and get it. It also allows you to be able to
fade in at will and not be noticed if you want that as well. You control the amount of
charisma that you use to manipulate any given situations.
You have the self-assuredness to take command, center stage, and control a crowd. You
know how to draw that crowds energy into yourself to fuel whatever you need. A
performance, a ritual, or a circle of dominating power and control. You understand how
to use energy to fuel your inner being whereby physical food is not always necessary.
It is mastering the combination of confidence, inner strength of will, intelligence,
charisma, and sensuality with the drive to use the energy of the world to get exactly what
you want.

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Predatory
A predatory mindset isn’t pretty and nice. Its not any hand holding or peace and love
bullshit. Its about being top alpha dog, and doing whatever it takes to get what you want.
In nature there are predators and prey. Each has its own place on the food chain, and
depending on the situation, you may take on either role. There is nothing wrong with it,
its just a constant flow. Something dies, something lives, each part places an important
role. Without a checks and balance system nothing will work.
Predators are necessary to thin the herd. They root out weakness, stupidity, and allow
those who are better to survive. This means that as a predator you can size up a situation.
You know and judge who is weaker and who is stronger. You know what you need to do
and say in order to manipulate any given situation so it falls into your favor.
You take what you need from those weaker, less adaptable and use it to make yourself
stronger. Yes, it sounds fucked up, but its true. The strong have always fed upon the
weak, and they always will. Knowing this, do something. Become more aware of your
surroundings, and the people close to you. What is really the nature of your
relationships. Are you the Alpha or delta or omega. Simply, know thyself and know your
role.
Knowing who you are, what you are doing, and how you are doing it requires reflection.
If you are not happy with your role, question it, change it. If you are aware of the inner
dynamics of the relationships in your life, and accept them fine. If you are not and want
something more, learn to size up your situation and then act to change it.
As a predator, you have the life you choose. As prey, you have to admit you made that
choice as well. With choices come responsibility, know and see what the outcomes will
be before you act. Know who you are, do what you need to do, and be aware of how you
do it. Choose to be Alpha, and you have to always be strong. Choose a lesser position of
prey and you will get what you desire. Prey by its very nature is there to be devoured.

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God
This is about you playing or being God in a nutshell. How you look at things, create
things as well as destroy these very same things. What you choose to do, does it always
make sense, is it always the right thing to do, is it even honorable, or do you even care to
take responsibility for what you choose to do You are fickle, variable, vindictive,
loving, and hell bent on the destruction of everything and yourself on occasion. Sounds
like reaper but its not. Its about what you create out of the chaos of your life. You may
not have decided on how or when you came into this world, but you can decide on how
to leave it.
What you choose to do in the interim is important. Your legacy as a God depends on it.
Will you be remembered for creating a life or ending it Will you create a new work of
art, way of life, philosophy, or nothing Will you as a God work to save it all and make
it better or will you just sit back and watch it all burn.
You can affect changes in your life and the world around you. You just have to decide
what kind of God you are going to be. Respected or feared, hands-on or hands-off.
What will you do in this role Become a smarter, stronger God who will leave a lasting
impression on the world or will you become one of those lesser gods, almost forgotten
relegated to the background like a 3 rd string quarterback. Will people remember what
you did and how you affected them in a positive way or will they curse your name and
work to erase it You make this decision.
You choose to be God form, act like it, take responsibility and shape your own destiny.
Never regretting the undone acts, but acting with courage and striving to be better and
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Reaper
Ultimate choices, decisions, death, and cullings. Things are not always pretty, usually
things are screwed up by people too stupid to live with no fucking clue. Some people
believe that 1/3 to 2/3 of the people on this planet need to die, so that shit can get better.
That being said, how does one choose or decide who gets culled, who become opfer.
Lower intelligence, physical deformations, anyone who wouldn’t survive in the wild,
young kids, old people, or politicians and lawyers. There are always exceptions to any of
the above, so no one hard and fast rule on a global scale could really apply.
On a personal scale, you make that choice daily. Killing yourself, your boss, your
girlfriend, your unborn child, or even drunk driving. All are potential choices that may
be faced. You have to take responsibility for your choices and understand the outcome of
any act. You can’t blame fate, or jesus, you can only blame yourself for poor choices.
The various occult schools have different outlooks on killing. Crowley spoke about
killing hundreds of children, but that was about sperm in regards to masturbation and the
wasting of his seed. Xitians speak about the sacredness of children and animals, but have
no problem in their bible with the killing, selling or sacrificing of both. Satanists speak
of not harming animals or children. The ONA felt the culling of lesser being during its
rites was fine, but Myatt is long gone and nothing is as it was. The current government
feels the same way as the Xitians. It has no problem sending young men and women to
war to die, after they (many leaders) refused to serve. I find it somewhat sad that men
with no honor, and no knowledge of combat can send others to die in a war with no end
game.
Every act of death comes down to a personal choice. Personal surrender of life. With
assisted suicide, the person still choose to go. When someone straps on a bomb-vest,
they decide that their faith will guide them through death. This faith transcends religions,
Xitans, Muslims, and many others believe in an afterlife. Their shared faith in a god
form past death is their personal choice. Its not logical, reasonable, or factual, it just “Is
the Way” to them, and nothing anyone can say will really ever change many of those
people.
When you make the decision for someone else, it changes things. Whether you kill for

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mercy, revenge, love, or money, it changes something inside you the first time it
happens. Those kinds of deaths can be used to fuel rites, or changes in a situation, but I
don’t feel it’s the most powerful way to make a change within yourself.
Wounding yourself, bleeding, or cumming after an emotional or physical build up of
energy during a rite with yourself as the nexus point can fuel much more. It is your
essence that you free and focus and yet control to push towards the results of any said
rite. Spill your own seed upon the altar. By you, thru you, within you, for you, towards a
resultant goal. It is sometimes called “la petite morte” for a reason.
When in doubt about it all, and you really don’t know what to do, just end it. Take
yourself out of the game, and go sit on the eternal dirt bench. People just get tired of a
complainer who does not want to change their life or situation. Do something with your
life or just end it. Your choice, your responsibility, and your outcome. Death doesn’t
always have to come for you, sometimes, you can go to it.

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Madness
Perhaps this is my madness. What brought us together, what qualities or ideals were we
searching for What kind of brotherhood were we looking for One we could be proud
of, one where we could hold our head up high. One where we knew who we were, where
loyalty, courage, honor, and a sense of truth were shared.
The truth of our inner self, outer self, and the world around us. A truth that made us
more capable of being true to ourselves. A truth that made us better than we were, a truth
that gave us something to believe in. A truth that was harsh and unkind, but one that
promised inner peace through striving for more. A truth that wouldn’t allow you to settle
for second best, or a comfortable place within the herd.
The truth gives you courage, and that courage allows you to see the best in others, but
sometimes not yourself. The truth allows you to dream of more. That dream allows you
to give your loyalty to others who have proved themselves along the pathway of that
dream. Those “Brothers” whom you know have your back within this vast wasteland of
humanity. We are “Brothers” in arms, in strength, in courage, making a dream a reality.
A simple dream of a truth that most of the world is too blind to see. We are truly living
in the Dark Ages of humanity, and we are as it seems the light bringers this time. For we
as individuals to become light brings, we must first understand and illuminate ourselves.

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Laughter
The ability to feel joy, humor, comedy or tragedy. To be able to see oneself fully you
have to be able to laugh at yourself. Recognize your faults, weaknesses, and ego.
Knowing that it all doesn’t matter. To be as a child, free to laugh, to learn, to grow.
Laughter brings warmth to your heart and reminds you that no matter how bad things
can be, they will either get better or just so fuckingly stupid and out of control worse.
Sometimes, it is better to laugh at the whole fucked up mess and continue on than cry
and wallow in self-defeatism.
Laughter allows you to pause in the moment and experience it fully. Life is just simply
made up of moments. The more you enjoy and laugh at each and every moment, the
stronger your life will be. Yeah, sounds stupid and kinda sappy, but think about it.
In the scheme of everything there is no reason to be depressed and sorrowful. If you
allow those feelings to hold you back, you will never grow as an individual. Those
feelings will keep you static and resentful. Accept your past, learn from it, and banish it
to the past with laughter. Emotions only have the power you give them. Give strength to
your joy and laughter.
Learn to live and laugh. Besides, who the fuck really cares, laugh and enjoy the fucking
crazy-ass ride. You only get one ticket.

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Chaos
Chaos Magicians (no matter how you spell that word), are really the bastard gypsy
children of the occult world. “We” take and steal bits and pieces from every group,
religion, belief system and twist and change it to our needs. We pick up and put down
paradigms as much or as fast as the wind blows. We decide what works and don’t allow
anyone to dictate our personal beliefs, philosophies, magical systems, or the lack thereof
in our daily lives. We may belong to many groups, and have friends all over the place.
We don’t believe in the limitation of the Self, and Believe nothing is impossible.
We can think and discuss on any given topic occult or otherwise, argue both sides of it
and confuse the Hell out of you while being completely happy with our focus on the
matter. Intelligence and Understanding is paramount. Nothing is taboo to think about. If
you are afraid to think, move forward, or take chances, this is not for you. It takes
wrapping your head around some fucked up ideas pretty far.
For example: Depending on your intent and goal, you may mix Daemonic names with
Enochain Tower calls, while working at a duplicate of Crowley’s altar using pink
candles.
Of course, in regards to rites, you will only get out of it what you put into it. Whether it
is a simple psychodrama, or a full out use of a reverse Xitan mass. The only thing is, if
your fucking stupid and have no clue about what you are doing, don’t do it. During your
late teens to early adult years some forms of mental illness come to light. If you really
believe outside of a psychodrama rite that daemons, angels, or gods are talking to you on
a regular basis, seek professional help. Your not a “special snowflake”, your mind is
chemically imbalanced.
In the end, Chaos is about opening your mind beyond the box, beyond limits, and just
laughing at the simple joke of it all. You just take what you need, and run with it. Things
then fall into place, and you just claim it. Your intent, Your force of will, Your result.

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Conclusion
What does it all mean, the various ideas, essays, and twisted train of thought…
It only has the meaning that you give to it. If you found ideas or traces of wisdom great.
If not, pass the book along, or read it again in a year.
Your Choices, Your Decisions, Your Responsibility, Your Life. Just Do Something with
it, it comes and goes so fast.
Live with the regret of things you have done, not the things you left undone. Don’t be an
asshole all the time. If your not happy, just shut the fuck up and Do Something about it.
Hail Satan
Hail Chaos
Hail Thyself
Morgan

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End Notes
Satanism and Love
(1)Transcendental Magic by Eliphas Levi, pg.75.
(2)Transcendental Magic by Eliphas Levi, pg.17.
(3)Magick Liber Aba Book Four Parts I-IV by Aleister Crowley, pg.631.
(4)Magick Liber Aba Book Four Parts I-IV by Aleister Crowley, pg.386.
(5)Magick Liber Aba Book Four Parts I-IV by Aleister Crowley, pg.386.
(6)Magick Liber Aba Book Four Parts I-IV by Aleister Crowley, pg.79.
Satanism and Self-Actualization
(1) A Review of Personality Theories by Victor Drapela, pg.139.
(2) The Satanic Bible by Anton LaVey, pg.128.
(3) A Review of Personality Theories by Victor Drapela, pg.139.
(4) Beneath the Mask by Christopher Monte, pg.659.
(5) The Devil's Notebook by Anton LaVey, pg.30.
(6) The Satanic Bible by Anton LaVey, pg.94.
(7) Toward a Psychology of Being by Abraham Maslow, pg.25.
(8) The Satanic Bible by Anton LaVey, pg.33.
(9) The Farther Reaches of Human Nature by Abraham Maslow, pg.279.
(10) The Satanic Bible by Anton LaVey, pg.74.

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References
Just about everything I have read, seen, experienced, and know intrinsically have gone
into my words written upon these pages. The list below are some brief quoted
references in regards to my written material within this book.
The Satanic Bible by Anton LaVey 1969
The Devil's Notebook by Anton LaVey 1992
Satan Speaks! by Anton LaVey 1998
Beneath The Mask by Christopher Monte 1995
Towards a Psychology of Being by Abraham Maslow 1968
The Farther Reaches of Human Nature by Abraham Maslow 1971
A Review of Personality Theories by Victor Drapela 1997
Magick Liber Aba Book Four Parts I-IV by Aleister Crowley 1997
Transcendental Magic by Eliphas Levi 1999

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About The Author
I am who I am. I’ve been true to myself and my views all my life. I am a life long
Satanic Chaos Magician with an open mind, and awareness of the huge cosmic joke that
life is. I have been involved in the occult world for well over 30 years. I am a published
author, artist, and medical professional. I am the inspiration behind some comic books,
paintings, and songs. I graduated from The School of Visual Arts, and Long Island
University. I believe you should never stop learning, and that every day is a new
adventure. I have friends all over the world, and they mean the world to me.
Be my friend, be by my side, or get the fuck out of my way.
Morgan