A Journal of Mahatma Gandhi Antarrashtriya Hindi Vishwavidyalaya
A Journal of Mahatma Gandhi Antarrashtriya Hindi Vishwavidyalaya
A Journal of Mahatma Gandhi Antarrashtriya Hindi Vishwavidyalaya
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people told me about the place made me<br />
tremble inside. But then I gave myself<br />
courage. I told myself—those who are afraid<br />
have to die before their death…Depositing<br />
my suitcase and bedding in the running<br />
room, I called the cook. He was also a<br />
Pathan. Besides Pashtu, he could also speak<br />
a smattering <strong>of</strong> Urdu. He advised me that<br />
I should neither be friends with those<br />
people nor be their enemy. Both things<br />
were dangerous. And what was most<br />
important, I was not supposed to even<br />
look at a Pathan woman. In such matters<br />
those people did not wait even for a minute<br />
and would cut a person into pieces.’<br />
‘Some time ago, there had been an<br />
earthquake in Quetta. Everything had been<br />
destroyed. Everywhere there were signs<br />
<strong>of</strong> destruction. But all around the place<br />
there were mountains. Snow-capped peaks<br />
looming far into the distance. Total silence.<br />
Tall trees. A few houses here and there.<br />
A wilderness stretched into the far<br />
distance…It was indeed a beautiful place,<br />
but even such a beautiful place made me<br />
apprehensive. I felt more terror stricken<br />
because I was a stranger there. I thought:<br />
there is another place where there is a<br />
church, Fathers, prayer, Christmas, cakes,<br />
partying, joy and friends like me; and<br />
in this place there is such<br />
wilderness…Everyone looked at me with<br />
suspicion. I was scared <strong>of</strong> everyone. I<br />
would spend my time in the running room.<br />
Sometimes I thought <strong>of</strong> playing the mouth<br />
organ, but the very next moment my mood<br />
would change.’<br />
‘Did you start driving trains there?’<br />
someone asked Raka. ‘No. I had not been<br />
put on duty till then. But I also had a<br />
fear: if Quetta was like this, what kind<br />
<strong>of</strong> place will those forested areas be where<br />
there was neither education nor the<br />
law….Before I began to drive I had heard<br />
all kinds <strong>of</strong> true and false stories about<br />
the place. I was scared to my bones. For<br />
many days I did not stir out <strong>of</strong> the running<br />
room. It was really strange that they did<br />
not put me on duty after my training<br />
was over. But there must have been a<br />
reason and that is why I had not been<br />
given the load till then. Sitting in the<br />
running room I was feeling bored.’<br />
‘One day, I came out <strong>of</strong> the running<br />
room. The caretaker <strong>of</strong> the running room<br />
tried to stop me. But I did not listen<br />
to him. I came out. It was a small market<br />
place. A strange kind <strong>of</strong> place. The pleasant<br />
morning <strong>of</strong> the hills. But in my heart there<br />
was fear. All around me there were tall<br />
and lean Pathans. Some <strong>of</strong> them had their<br />
turbans on, others were bare headed. All<br />
<strong>of</strong> them were fair with sharp features.<br />
All <strong>of</strong> them were men. There was not<br />
a single woman there.’<br />
“Frightened, I shuffled slowly across<br />
the market place, looking around in a<br />
confused manner. I stopped in front <strong>of</strong><br />
a shop. There were some people sitting<br />
in it. It was a kahwa house. The shop<br />
owner <strong>of</strong> the kahwa house looked at me.<br />
86 :: January-March 2012