A Journal of Mahatma Gandhi Antarrashtriya Hindi Vishwavidyalaya
A Journal of Mahatma Gandhi Antarrashtriya Hindi Vishwavidyalaya
A Journal of Mahatma Gandhi Antarrashtriya Hindi Vishwavidyalaya
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He was in the room, at the writing table,<br />
without my permission. He had rendered<br />
his teeth dark and fingers yellow by constant<br />
smoking. His hair was in a mess. He<br />
had not considered it necessary to brush<br />
it. I had been seeing him for the last three<br />
days. I had got frightened on the first day.<br />
An unknown male person in my room;<br />
frightened, I had asked him in confusion:<br />
‘Who are you? ’<br />
‘Oh; a mistake’, he replied in a very low<br />
voice.<br />
‘What are you writing? ’<br />
He turned his eyes towards me,<br />
‘ Want to write something, but...I,ve lost<br />
the words. Can you recall, there was a time<br />
when I would write one story everyday,<br />
and comfortably too?<br />
‘Don’t pose. A story every day! This<br />
happend only once. You didn’t have money<br />
to buy your cigarettes and wine. you would<br />
write a story, give it to the editor <strong>of</strong> the<br />
magazine and buy a bottle <strong>of</strong> liquor when<br />
you got the money. You didn’t care for your<br />
dear wife even...’<br />
But it seemed as if he did not hear<br />
me. He was looking into space.<br />
‘I had words and words, even at the<br />
moment when TobaTek Singh was about to<br />
close his eyes on the no-man’s-land.... and...<br />
all that comes to my recollection... that<br />
disastrous afternoon... when hearing the<br />
voice <strong>of</strong> the doctor the girl had begun to<br />
unfasten her shalwar. No I had words even<br />
at that time.’<br />
‘And now?’<br />
As I was still looking at him he disappeared.<br />
He, that is Manto. Saadat Hasan Manto.<br />
I had got badly startled by the dream.<br />
Well! let me tell you even my name.<br />
Kausar Bee... or... why don’t you<br />
choose a name for me that might please<br />
you?<br />
The times were disturbed even when I<br />
was born. Now and then fierce disturbances<br />
erupted even when I had grown up to be<br />
a girl. The tiny bells tied round the ankles<br />
<strong>of</strong> barbarity and terror produced the noise<br />
so very grating to my ears that I befriended<br />
books at a very tender age. And, unawares,<br />
reading the books gained friendship <strong>of</strong> this<br />
Manto who wore glasses on his large but<br />
deceptive eyes. To me it was almost inconceivable<br />
that this lean and thin person, sick<br />
looking man <strong>of</strong> letters, could intervene<br />
between me and my dreams.<br />
No. It is necessary to give you a reference<br />
<strong>of</strong> that day.<br />
Once again the city was overcast by the<br />
vultures <strong>of</strong> terror. Police vans visited the<br />
area populated by the minority caste much<br />
more frequently than they otherwise would.<br />
Not a long time elapsed since the unfortunate<br />
happening had taken place two or<br />
three years ago. The disaster was alive once<br />
again, in a different guise though.<br />
I am not a journalist. And you can see<br />
130 :: January-March 2012