Clarissa, Volume 6 - The History Of A Young Lady
Clarissa, Volume 6 - The History Of A Young Lady
Clarissa, Volume 6 - The History Of A Young Lady
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<strong>Clarissa</strong>, <strong>Volume</strong> 6 − <strong>The</strong> <strong>History</strong> <strong>Of</strong> A <strong>Young</strong> <strong>Lady</strong> 89<br />
I hope now, my dearest life, said I, snatching her hand, and pressing it to my lips, that your silence bodes me<br />
good. Let me, my beloved creature, have but your tacit consent; and this moment I will step out and engage a<br />
minister. And then I promised how much my whole future life should be devoted to her commands, and that I<br />
would make her the best and tenderest of husbands.<br />
At last, turning to me, I have told you my mind, Mr. Lovelace, said she. Think you, that I could thus<br />
solemnly−−<strong>The</strong>re she stopt−−I am too much in your power, proceeded she; your prisoner, rather than a person<br />
free to choose for myself, or to say what I will do or be. But as a testimony that you mean me well, let me<br />
instantly quit this house; and I will then give you such an answer in writing, as best befits my unhappy<br />
circumstances.<br />
And imaginest thou, fairest, thought I, that this will go down with a Lovelace? Thou oughtest to have known<br />
that free−livers, like ministers of state, never part with a power put into their hands, without an equivalent of<br />
twice the value.<br />
I pleaded, that if we joined hands this morning, (if not, to−morrow; if not, on Thursday, her uncle's birth−day,<br />
and in his presence); and afterwards, as I had proposed, set out for Berks; we should, of course, quit this<br />
house; and, on our return to town, should have in readiness the house I was in treaty for.<br />
She answered me not, but with tears and sighs; fond of believing what I hoped I imputed her silence to the<br />
modesty of her sex. <strong>The</strong> dear creature, (thought I,) solemnly as she began with me, is ruminating, in a sweet<br />
suspence, how to put into fit words the gentle purposes of her condescending heart. But, looking in her<br />
averted face with a soothing gentleness, I plainly perceived, that it was resentment, and not bashfulness, that<br />
was struggling in her bosom.*<br />
* <strong>The</strong> <strong>Lady</strong>, in her minutes, owns the difficulty she lay under to keep her temper in this conference. 'But when<br />
I found,' says she, 'that all my entreaties were ineffectual, and that he was resolved to detain me, I could no<br />
longer withhold my impatience.'<br />
At last she broke silence−−I have no patience, said she, to find myself a slave, a prisoner, in a vile<br />
house−−Tell me, Sir, in so many words tell me, whether it be, or be not, your intention to permit me to quit<br />
it?−−To permit me the freedom which is my birthright as an English subject?<br />
Will not the consequence of your departure hence be that I shall lose you for ever, Madam?−−And can I bear<br />
the thoughts of that?<br />
She flung from me−−My soul disdains to hold parley with thee! were her violent words.−−But I threw myself<br />
at her feet, and took hold of her reluctant hand, and began to imprecate, avow, to promise−−But thus the<br />
passionate beauty, interrupting me, went on:<br />
I am sick of thee, MAN!−−One continued string of vows, oaths, and protestations, varied only by time and<br />
place, fills thy mouth!−−Why detainest thou me? My heart rises against thee, O thou cruel implement of my<br />
brother's causeless vengeance.−−All I beg of thee is, that thou wilt remit me the future part of my father's<br />
dreadful curse! the temporary part, base and ungrateful as thou art! thou hast completed!<br />
I was speechless!−−Well I might!−−Her brother's implement!−−James Harlowe's implement!−−Zounds, Jack!<br />
what words were these!<br />
I let go her struggling hand. She took two or three turns cross the room, her whole haughty soul in her air.<br />
<strong>The</strong>n approaching me, but in silence, turning from me, and again to me, in a milder voice−−I see thy<br />
confusion, Lovelace. Or is it thy remorse?−−I have but one request to make thee−−the request so often<br />
repeated−−That thou wilt this moment permit me to quit this house. Adieu, then, let me say, for ever adieu!